Alexia Eden (FairyTales Don't Exist)(61)

I saw Drake coming up as I was chatting to Mark, I noticed he wasn't  holding Lexi close like he usually does. From behind him Lexi appeared,  she walked straight past me and sat on the other end of the table near  Chloe and Ron.         

     



 

She seemed different, not her usual happy self, she didn't give everyone  her tight hugs or even that beautiful smile and the rest of the group  also noticed this. She sat on the other side of the table stiffly as if  she didn't want to be here in the first place, I noticed her jagged  movements and how jumpy she was too.

Did we cause this? Malek asked me and I really wasn't sure. I hope not …

I watched as Rachel spoke to her and Lexi gave her a straight blank  answer with a soft voice, her face was void of emotion even the smile  she gave Rachel was fake.

"Why is she acting strange?" Rachel asked through the mind link.

I watched as Drake tensed next to me as he replied, "Not sure, just  ignore her." He says ignorantly and it immediately pisses me off that he  doesn't care.

I chat with the boys a while as I observe Lexi and how she moved away  from Drake when he put his arm around her, he pushes her roughly against  his shoulder making her wince. I can feel my wolf becoming agitated at  Drakes attitude towards our girl.

Those two haven't been their usual selves. They haven't said one word to  each other the entire time and they're not all touchy feely like usual.  Lexi sits there blankly as if she doesn't hear a word everyone says and  she continues to stare off into the ocean. I observed Chloe's worried  expression and I've seen her sad expression when she looks at Lexi and  the death glare she's been giving Drake since he got here.

The waitress came and took our orders, when it got to Drake's turn I  watch as he checks the girl out whose flirting with him. How can he  disrespect Lexi like that right in front of her?

He orders food for Lexi without asking what she wants and passes a  comment about him paying so he chooses, I look over to Lexi and she has  the same blank look on her face again not saying one word. When Drake  passes a comment about wanting the waitress later, everyone at the table  lets out a growl. I look over to Lexi as Ronny asks them what's  happened between them and why Drake's acting like a dick.

I watch as Lexi looks back at the ocean trying to avoid our eyes. She  quickly wipes a few tears away before anyone can see … but I see. I turn  to Drake to see him taking the girls number she handed him. I remember  what he said when Ron asked him at lunch if he had a long night last  night … they slept together.

Anger consumes me and I blurt out without thinking, "Dude she couldn't  have been that bad in bed?" I hear the gasps and I instantly feel  regret, even if they did sleep together I shouldn't of said something so  callous.

Lexi seems shocked and sad by what I said and I can't look at her eyes,  the beautiful blue eyes she once had are empty and vacant. She looks  back down at her hands playing with her scarf as she swiftly wipes a few  more tears away.

How could I be so harsh … ? Chloe surprises us by yelling at Drake and I  for our behavior and we deserve it. I was about to apologize when Chloe  took Lexi away. Lexi battles to get out of the chair as Chloe helps her  up then she leans against Chloe as she limps away out of sight. My wolf  wants to run after her and beg for her forgiveness so he can look after  her and make sure she's alright.

"Why is she limping? What happened to her?" I ask Ronny and Drake.

Ronny just shakes her head glaring at me. Drake looks sad as he answers, "She tripped down the patio stairs."

"What the fuck is wrong with you two? How can you treat her like that!" Ronny yells at both of us finally letting loose.

"I know Ron, I'm going to apologize to her as soon as she comes back.  Dude how could you blatantly flirt with that slut in front of her?" I  ask Drake getting mad.

I notice he looks regretful for how he's been acting, he wipes his hands  through his hair as he looks down at the table, he sadly says. "I don't  know what I was thinking, I shouldn't have done that. I guess I tried  to get back at her and I thought that if I made her jealous she would  see it from my point of view." I notice he's not telling me the full  truth and he seems hesitant as he thinks of what to say.

"Why would you want to get back at her?" Rachel asks giving him a dirty look.

"She's been hanging out with two guys from the other pack. I was  jealous, that's why I haven't been myself today and that's why I flirted  with the waitress, I thought if she was at least a little bit jealous  she would see my point." Drake says. "Shit ...I shouldn't have done that  man, I feel like a complete asshole." He says running his hands through  his hair once again.

"I'm going to go look for them." Rachel says getting up and heading into the restaurant.

"She just got back here and this is how you guys treat her? You two are  going to chase her away! What are you going to do when she decides she's  not going to come down every weekend and that she doesn't want to come  back?" Ronny says angrily making me feel even more awful.         

     



 

"She will come back! She is mine and she's not leaving me!" Drake growls possessively. I can't help but feel jealous.

The girls come back and they seem a little odd, both of their cheeks are  rosy and the two of them can't stop snickering. I've never seen Lexi  drunk before and it's the cutest thing.

As soon as she covers her mouth to hide the giggles I notice the red  stained bandages wrapped around her wrists as her shirt rises up. We all  notice it as we stare, I look over at Chloe who has that sad look on  her face as if this doesn't surprise her.

Was Lexi hurting herself?

Look what we've done! We caused her this pain! I tell my wolf.

I instantly apologize and so does Drake, he looks ashamed and miserable. The words that come out of her mouth next shock me.

"You don't have to apologize …  I deserved it." She says this as she looks  out into the ocean placing the emotionless mask back on, the one that  she's been wearing throughout the evening.

She asks Ronny to take her home and she rushes out the restaurant leaving all of us shocked.

Is that why she's cutting herself? She thinks that she deserves  everything that's happened to her and the way we've been treating her?  Maybe walking away from her wasn't the best thing. My wolf says to me.

I quickly rush up to her as I watch her near the sidewalk staring at the  blackness of the ocean in the night. I reach for her hand and she  winces at my touch and moves away as if I might hurt her.

I apologize again asking her for forgiveness, I practically beg her. I'm  standing there waiting for some kind of reaction from her but she gives  me nothing. This is very unlike Lexi and she's never been  this...hollow...before.

She says, "Yeah, well guess you did make it easier by pushing me away.  You made it easier for both of us. Forget about me, find someone that is  perfect, beautiful and everything you ever wanted … someone … that isn't me  Jax."

Doesn't she think she's good enough for me? She is too good for me that's why I did this. I could never get over her.

"Baby please, I'm sorry …  what happened to you? Why do you  seem … .so … empty?" I say almost breaking into a sob not caring if I showed  these weak emotions.

"That's because I am … " These are the last words I expect to hear from  her mouth before she walks away leaving my wolf howling in pain within  me.





CHAPTER 37:


DRAKE POV

I walk out of her house with my wolf still in control. He went too far  this time and he knows it. As he looked at her battered small body lying  on the bed in her own blood, he howled in pain. He didn't mean for it  to go that far and he was going to mark her but he wasn't sure she would  survive the turning process.

I've shut him out completely now and even though I can hear him begging  me to let my walls down, I can't let him hurt her again. I don't think  she will ever forgive me for what I did to her and I don't expect her  to. I whipped her like an animal...she fought so hard against me but  eventually she gave up and lay there as I shattered her fragile body.

My wolf destroyed her, he was completely in control of my body while I  watched him break her, I wasn't strong enough to take back control. She  just lay there...

After dropping my car off at the house I showered and threw all the  clothes I previously wore away including my leather belt that was  covered in her blood. I went back to Lexi's, I tiptoed to her room, it  wasn't too dark but with my heightened senses I was able to see her  clearly. She lay in the exact same spot I left her, her eyes staring at  the curtains I closed. Her face bloody and bruised, her one eye was  almost swollen shut as she continued to look at the curtains, there was  no emotion on her face....I have completely broken her.

She doesn't even realize I'm standing watching her because she is in  such a daze. I want to just run to her, hold her and tell her how sorry I  am but I know that will only do worse, she was so scared of me last  night.