“What does it look like? You honestly don’t think I’m going to leave you here alone? I know your mom isn’t here…” he says as he climbs and pulls my hips so that my back is flush against his warm chest, he spoons me. He pulls the blanket over, tucking me in and I can’t help but look at his muscles on his forearms and biceps as his arm moves.
He laces my fingers through his that’s resting near my head, just as I did with his hand the first night he slept next to me. He moves his other hand over my shirt by my belly button. I instinctively move my bottom closer seeking more warmth, he lets out a small sigh.
His hand that was near my stomach starts to move toward my hip where my shirt has risen up, my underwear can be seen and felt. I know it doesn’t cover much, because I can feel the bottom of my ass cheeks sticking out. His hands slowly move to my hip as he feels the lacey underwear I hear him take in a sharp breath when he notices I’m only wearing underwear and a baggy shirt. I feel him stiffen against me, he moves his hand toward my ass and I can feel him touching the fabric of my underwear. I suddenly have goosebumps down my back and arms. His giant hand is resting on my ass before he grabs it and pushes himself against me. I let out a soft moan and close my eyes enjoying his touch even though I know I shouldn’t do this to Drake.
“Baby, you’re driving me crazy, your skin is so soft I just want to feel it all over…” he whispers against my ear and I can feel his lips on my neck driving me crazy.
“I know Jax... I don’t know why I’m feeling like...I’m just so confused because I think…I want you too.” I whisper back to him.
I feel his smile against my neck as he holds me closer. “Oh baby, you already have me…” he whispers directly in my ear and then he kisses my neck gently.
I turn around to face him; he puts his one hand on the base of my back and pulls me closer to him so that my chest is against his.
“Jax, I feel like I’m betraying Drake. I can’t do this to him…” I see his eyes falter but I continue. “I know it’s like I’m stringing both of you along but I don’t want to lose you either Jax. I don’t know what it is but it’s just that I know I need you...” I say looking into his eyes as they shine in the moon lit room.
“Lexi I need you to, I’m just happy you finally realized it though. I know you are with Drake and I know we can’t do this to him behind his back and we need to stop but I just can’t stay away from you. I need to touch you and be around you. I know deep down though that fate has everything planned. I want whatever that is between us to happen but it has to happen the way it’s meant to and we can’t rush this. I don’t want you to resent me for breaking you and Drake up.” He takes a deep breath and runs his hand through his hair as he looks at the ceiling then he looks at me as he says. “I think it’s best if we continue as if none of this happened, I’m not going to lie though... it does hurt when I see you and Drake together and just the thought of you two hooking up breaks my heart but I just want you happy Lex. I’ll do anything for you…“ He says as he kisses my cheek and I can see the pain in his eyes so clearly.
“Jax I swear I’m not the whore that I seem to look like these days, I’ve never been in this situation before. I’ve had a couple of boyfriends before but I’ve never really had such an attraction to them like I do with you guys, it’s just when I’m with you I go crazy and just want more. I’m so sorry for putting you through all of this. I don’t ever want to hurt you Jax. It's not as if I sleep around. Drake and I haven’t had sex yet….I mean… I haven’t... I… I’m still a virgin.” I tell him and his eyes widen and a grin appears on his face.
“You guys haven’t had sex yet? You’re still a virgin? Really baby?” he asks me his face filled with awe.
“Yeah we haven’t, I just haven’t met the right guy yet and I at least want to get to know the guy before I jump in bed with him, you know?”
“Babe you are amazing you know that?” he pulls me tighter into his arms, “You are unlike any girl I have ever met.”
“Thanks Jax…You're pretty amazing yourself.” I yawn and snuggle into his big warm body. We fall into a deep sleep against each other.
In the morning after Jax leaves, I quickly pack a bag of clothes and head for the car. I send Drake, Ronny and Jax a text saying I’m about to leave and that I will text them when I get there.
Then I send one to Alex telling her I’m on my way, she replies instantly telling me how excited everyone is to see me.