Alexia Eden(37)

“Don’t do that Lexi, you’re making it sound like it isn’t a big deal when it is! All I wanted to know was where you were going and who you were seeing? Why did you make such a big deal about it?” He asks as his voice wavers. I can see he is trying to calm himself down. His hands are on the door on either side of my head blocking me in and his face is right in front of mine, then he lifts his head as if he’s smelling the air.

Could he smell the twins on me? He looks back at me and I can see through the light coming from my window from the lightning that his once beautiful hazel eyes are now black, he stares down at me, intimidating me, making me tremble with fear.

“Who the FUCK did you see?” he roars as he puts his hands on the side of my arms and pushes me into the door hard, my feet are dangling a few inches above the ground. With the force from the door on my back and head I’m winded and can’t seem to grasp enough air into my lungs. If it wasn’t for his hands that are still on my arms I probably would fall to the floor. His hands are so tight around my arms that I know for certain that I’m going to be left with bruises. I’m so shocked by his behavior and mood swing that I’m at a loss for words. I want to yell at him but the words won’t come out as I stare into his black eyes.

“Why can’t you just tell me? What’s the big secret? It’s not safe out there! Don’t you understand that you are MINE? No one else fucking touches you but ME!” he growls at me as he pushes his body into mine so I can’t move making me shove against the door again hurting my shoulder blades. His nose is now so close to mine, his face shows so much anger and I can feel his breath on my lips. I’ve never been more terrified in my existence; I don’t understand why he is treating me like this.

I feel the tears that I’ve been hiding start to fall down my cheek as I whisper afraid he might hurt me more. “It’s not safe out there? Where is it safe? Here? With you?” he looks down at my red arms and a bruise that’s he’s caused is already forming on my left arm, his eyes turn back to brown and his face softens as guilt takes over his features.

“Fuck…” he raises his hand and I cringe, I turn my head and put my one hand up to cover my face to stop the blow that I’m waiting to hit my face but it doesn’t come.

“Oh God Lexi, fuck…I messed up! I’m so sorry, please… I didn’t mean to hurt you.” he steps away from me and all his weight that was holding me up is gone and I fall to the floor and cry out in pain.

“Babe I’m so sorry, please forgive me, please Lex…” He rushes to me and picks my half naked quivering body and places me on the bed. He climbs in the bed next to me and holds me against his warm naked chest carefully so he doesn’t hurt me; he then pulls me to his lap so I'm straddling him.

I’m still crying like a baby and I cover my face with my hands so he can’t see, I try push him away from me but this only makes him hold me tighter against him, whispering how sorry he is in my ear and brushing my back gently. I know I should hate him and end whatever we have before we start something serious but I feel guilty about how much I enjoyed the twin’s touch that in a sick way I see this as the punishment I deserve.

I cry into his shoulder and finally give into his warm loving touch and wrap my arms around his neck, I put my head in the crook of his neck trying to control my cries and smell him, his scent makes me feel at ease, not completely though.

He lifts my head to look at him and he moves the wet hair from my face slightly cupping my jaw in his big hands. I can see how sad and sorry he is as he kisses the tears that have fallen on my puffy rosy cheeks. His hair is also wet and messy, his blond hair has a few long pieces that have fallen so his eyes are partially covered, I lift my trembling hand and gently move his hair so I can see those beautiful eyes I love so much, looking into them immediately calms me. He takes my hand and kisses it.

“Lexi I will NEVER hurt you again… I promise you that… I’m so sorry. You don’t have to tell me where you went, you’re back safe now and that’s all that matters. All I ask from you is that you let me know you’re safe. I thought I was going to die when you didn’t come back, I was so worried babe. Please don’t ever do that to me again…” he says softly as he looks me in my eyes and wipes away the remaining tears.

I don’t know what to say so I just nod, although I’m calm I’m still afraid he might hurt me again and I just don’t know what to say to him at this moment. I need some time to think about everything that has happened. I hate that I cried in front of him, I don’t want him to think I’m weak and that I will just accept this behavior from him, we both made a mistake and we handled it the wrong way but I won’t let him think that it’s okay to push me around. It’s not.