I feel the bed dip and Jax’s warm body near mine. He puts his arm over my shoulders. I look into his face and he has a grin.
“Lexi, not going to argue about this with you, it’s already done. I just want you safe, please don’t be mad at me.” he says as he pulls me into his arms lying next to me on my bed.
I sigh, “Okay, thank you….for everything.”
“Pleasure babe, how was movie night?” Jax asks.
I tell him all about the movie we watched and how scared I was, he laughs at me. “You’re such a girl!” he says as he rubs my back up and down.
“Whatever!” I laugh at him.
“Jax….”
I lift my head up so that my chin is leaning on his chest and he’s looking down at me this seems rather intimate but I enjoy being close to him.
“Drake asked me to be his girlfriend and... I said yes. I know the whole girlfriend boyfriend thing sounds cheesy but what I mean is, he asked me to go on a proper date with him and I said yes.” I tell him and I feel him slightly tense and as if it never happened he relaxes and carries on rubbing my back gently.
“That’s cool Lex, Drake is a good guy, he better treat you right …” he says as he looks away from my eyes.
“What’s wrong Jax?” I ask, sensing something is off.
“I don’t know, it’s just that…. I don’t know…” he hesitates.
“Please tell me?”
“Well...now that you and Drake are together I just hope that we will still stay close.” he says as he turns his head blushing.
“Jax! Nothing’s going to change between us, you’re still my best friend and if you think this is going to stop us from being “us” then tell me, I won’t date Drake. You are too important to me to lose…” I stammer.
“Baby you’re just as important to me and I don’t wanna lose you, I know we are best friends and nothing more and even though we’re close I just don’t want to ruin what we have you know…”
“Yeah Jax, I know what you mean, you and Ronny are my family, you know I love you right?” I tell Jax as I look into his eyes.
He looks down at me and a smile lights his entire face, its as if he’s never heard someone tell him they love him, he bends down and kisses my cheek.
“I love you to Lex.” he says, but when he says this it feels like he means more, it was intimate.
Nah I’m going crazy , someone like Jax couldn’t possibly want someone like me, it was definitely a sisterly “I love you” yeah that’s what it was…
I smile at him and we lie quietly next to each other both of us deep in thought, “Lexi? Do you believe in fate?” He asks me randomly.
“What do you mean? Like everything happens for a reason and all that crap?” he chuckles at my response.
“Yeah, do you believe in it?”
“Yeah I guess, I don’t really know. I mean I wish some things didn’t happen you know? And I wish I could change things but then I wouldn’t be where I am now and I wouldn’t have met you guys.” I say as I look up to him again.
“What do you mean?” he says as he starts playing with a piece of my hair. “You don’t have to tell me if you don’t want to Lexi.”
“No I want to tell you, it’s okay, I haven’t really spoken to anyone about any of this and I guess I should tell someone. Well, you know about my dad being dead right, so anyway you see when my dad was still alive my mother was this perfect mom, like the whole housewife thing and yeah, she was my best friend too but then when my dad died it was like he took that part of her with him and I was left with that woman.” I say as I point to my door.
“I didn’t know what to do, I tried to help her but she was still so sad, I felt that I wasn’t strong enough for her because I was also dealing with the emotions from losing dad. So I decided that I would keep all those emotions inside so that I can be strong enough for both of us you know? She said she had no one to live for and she was alone but she didn’t see how I was still there, I also lost him… She couldn’t handle it though, he was her soul mate and her heart was broken and seeing her like that made me break. I don’t know if she will get better, she has her good days and bad ones like when she doesn’t want me around, but I need her and I know she needs me – even if she doesn’t want me…” I say as I cuddle up closer to his side.
He pulls me even closer. “I’m so sorry Alexia, I didn’t know the whole story, you don’t have to keep it in anymore. You have me now and you can tell me anything, I will always be here for you.”