After reluctantly letting her go, I made my way out the window and made sure she locked the window before I left.
A few days have gone by and I’ve spent as much time as I can with Lexi getting to know her. Ronny and her have gotten quite close and I envy that she gets to spend most of the time with Lex.
Ronny informed me that she thinks that Lexi is the girl that Drake's been meeting. I kind of guessed that when I saw Lexi at the waterfall that one night but I hoped it wasn’t true. So I asked Ronny to find out how she felt about me only to have Ronny tell me that Lexi only has friendly feelings for me. Ron says she knows she was lying though. Us wolves can sense when people are lying, I still felt a jab to my heart to hear that she didn’t feel the same about me as I did her, even if she was lying about it because she was too scared to admit her feelings for me.
I wasn’t going to ruin what I had with Lexi by making her admit that she did indeed feel the same way about me, I needed to be close to her and if being her best friend got me to stay close to her than I would accept that.
When I realized that Lexi was the girl that Drake has been talking about, I was miserable and Ronny knew it, Ronny suggested we try and keep Lexi from Drake just until school starts so we could at least spend time with her because we knew that as soon as Drake met her officially he would steal her away from us.
I knew I was in love with Lexi, it didn’t matter if I’d only known her for a little while. I felt like I knew her my entire life and I gues when you know you just do. Time doesn’t mean shit when love comes into play. She wasn’t ready to admit her feelings about me and I loved her enough to let her choose who she was going to be with and who she thought would make her happy. Drake was my brother, maybe not by blood, but in every other aspect he was my family and I couldn’t take Lexi from him. Drake was going to be the Beta when I became Alpha and I wouldn’t go against him. I’m not sure if he will treat her well because I’ve seen the way he treats other girls when he is angry but if he doesn’t treat her well, I would step in and give her everything she wants and deserves.
It’s a bittersweet situation, I’m so happy Drake found someone to love and care for but that means that I’m losing the girl I love to my best friend and… I’m not sure I will ever find someone else that I could love as much as I love her.
My wolf whimpers inside at the thought of ever losing her.
CHAPTER 11:
LEXI POV
As Jax walks past me, I see the sad look in his eyes as he starts silently pacing my room as if he’s thinking about something deeply. Please don’t tell me he’s here to end our friendship... as that thought crosses my mind I rush over to where Jax is standing and dive into his arms and wrap my arms tight around his waist.
“I’m so sorry Jax, please forgive me. I swear I will apologize to your girlfriend as soon as I see her at school. I'm sorry! Please don’t end our friendship ….I need y…. I mean I… I can’t lose you please Jax I promise I will be a better friend!" Trying to keep my tears from spilling out I stutter into his chest holding him tight, I feel him tense as I put my arms around him tighter then he puts his arms around me and gives me a gentle squeeze as he listens to what I say.
He nuzzles his face in my neck and I hear him take a deep breath as if he's smelling me.
“Baby please don’t apologize, I came here to apologize to you. Chelsea isn’t my girlfriend and I didn’t know she was treating you that way. I was angry because no one told me that she was treating you like shit.” he lifts my chin up so I can look into those beautiful emerald eyes of his.
"So you aren't mad at me? I thought you came here because you didn’t want to be friends with me anymore…” I say as I look at his chest trying to hide my insecurities, remembering I’m still in his arms and he is still holding me tightly against him, comforting me.
“No Lexi, I need you too baby, I wouldn’t want to lose you over such a silly thing, in fact I'm proud of you for standing up for yourself. I just didn’t know that you were that feisty and... from what I heard it was quite sexy.” he smirks at me, “but Lexi you should just keep your distance from those girls, they can be quite dangerous and well...even though you can defend yourself - if those girls gang up on you when none of us are around, they could really hurt you. Don’t worry though baby if those girls know what’s good for them they will stay far away from you, I've had a chat with Chelsea about it.”
“Jax! I can sort my own problems out, I don’t need you to fight my battles for me, clearly I know what I'm doing, seriously!” I whisper shout at him and go and sit on my bed with my knees up, hands folded and head down trying to calm myself.