If he doesn’t want me…then he won’t have me.
“I accept….I accept!” I scream out waiting for the pain to stop.
The pain eases and I fall to the ground taking in deep breaths, I can sense Jax and I still have feelings for him but it’s not as magnified as it was before. The hurt I feel from everything that has happened today trumps any feelings I have left for Drake and Jax. Hopefully with time the bond will disappear.
I tremble as I lift my body off the floor and ignore Jax and Drake as Rachel and Ronny help me downstairs to my car. We collapse on the grass with the girls on either side of me.
“What the fuck just happened? How could I be Jax’s mate when he already has you? You haven’t bonded with Chloe yet have you?” I ask as I catch my breath.
“My wolf already believes Chloe is our mate. She’s our second chance mate but no we haven’t fully bonded yet. Remember we explained to you about second chance mates? It’s the mate the fates send you when you are rejected or your mate dies. We only get two Lexi, you were his second and last chance. I can’t believe he fucked it up.” she says running her hands through her hair.
I’m exhausted…physically and emotionally. I want to get away and never come back. My sorrow and hurt runs too deep and I focus all my energy on shutting it all away until all I fell is…nothing.
I don’t feel anything, I don’t want to feel anything. I want to be the person I was before I came here, before I knew all about all this werewolf shit but I know I will never be that girl again.
“Wow…what a birthday right.” I say sarcastically resting my head in my hands over my knees.
“Birthday?” Drake and Jax say, I only notice now that they were standing behind me the entire time. Both look regretful but I couldn’t be bothered. I look them over, I no longer feel the uncontrollable love I felt for them before, I've shut all of that off now, I feel nothing towards them…not even hate…nothing.
“Yeah you dumb shits! It’s her birthday! You two only think about your fucking selves!” Ronny yells standing up looking at them, I watch as her eyes darken.
“Don’t talk to Drake like that!” Chelsea growls coming out the house.
“He deserves the way I’m speaking to him for getting in bed with your skanky ass!” Ronny yells louder. I stand up and walk towards Ronny as she heads in Chelsea's direction.
“Ronny stop, she’s not worth it!” I call to Ronny but she’s not listening as she makes her way closer to Chelsea.
“Well since little innocent Lexi here wasn’t giving it up, obviously he would want someone with experience.” Chelsea squeals. I watch as Drakes face becomes red and his eyes darken with anger at Chelsea but this isn’t his fight, I am no longer his possession and I refuse to let these boys fight my battles for me. This infuriates me; I’m so sick of these people thinking I’m weak.
“Chelsea! Drake doesn’t even want you!” Ronny yells. I say calmly trying to control the anger within me, “Why are you still here?”
“He does want me, he hasn’t rejected me yet! Unlike you Lexi, your mate rejected you because you are so fucking useless!” She lets out a harsh laugh making me cringe.
“Chelsea…you’re really starting to piss me off, you need to shut your mouth!” I say through gritted teeth as I stare her down. I can feel the tingles and I know soon enough the grey flames in my eyes will be shining dangerously unless I control myself.
“Or what human? You are too pathetic to fight and Drake will protect me.” she says winking at Drake and just growls at her.
That’s it.
I let out a deep growl…not knowing where that came from, I notice the rest of the people outside are as shocked as I am but I don’t care. I let the anger consume me as I feel my eyes change colour. I feel the wind pick up and I welcome it. I look back to Chelsea who seems petrified.
“What’s happening Lexi? What are you doing?” Jax screams over the wind.
“Leave her Jax, this has been a long time coming!” Chloe says.
I glare at Chelsea and focus all my attention on her as I watch her fall to the ground clutching her chest. She screams in pain and begs me to stop and even though I’m enjoying watching her in pain, I close my eyes and shut out the anger. I don’t want to kill her but I had to show them I’m not weak.
The wind stops and I open my eyes to see Chelsea gasping for air backing away from me on the floor.
“W…what a…are you?” she stutters.
I turn to look at Jax and raise an eyebrow, “Not weak…that’s for sure.” I turn and walk.