“W…what? How can you say that? I’m your mate! We are meant to be together!” she asks Drake.
“No Chelsea! You were my mate, I love Lexi…I can’t give her up. We would never work Chelsea, you’ve basically slept with the whole pack, what would they think of me if we were together? I’m going to be the Beta, my girl should be mine only! Lexi is that girl!” Drake says angrily snarling at Chelsea. She continues to stand there speechless.
“You think I’m going to stay with you? You are crazy Drake! You need help! You continue to break me down just to fix me up and when I’m just about healed, you ruin me again! I’m done Drake! I’m so fucking broken. I will never be completely healed if I stay with you. Stay with her, keep her Drake because you both deserve each other! You never deserved all the love I gave you…I’m done Drake…I’m done with all of this...I’m so fucking done.” I say wiping away my finally tear.
“No Lex, don’t say that.” he says pushing past Ronny to get to me, I move away from him and bump into Jax. My body feels like I’ve been slightly shocked, physically, the electrical currents course through me, I have Goosebumps down my back. My body is on high alert around Jax and I don’t know what is going on.
I look up to meet his beautiful emerald eyes, my whole body relaxes and I completely forget about Drake and what just happened. I’m in awe of what Jax is doing to me by just touching me. The only thing on my mind is Jax. Everyone else blurs as all my attention is solely fixated on him.
“What’s...happening to me?” I whisper staring into those green eyes.
“You’re my mate baby…” he says I look up and smile at him then reach out to put my hands on his chest; I need to touch him and feel him beneath my fingers. He’s magnetic and he’s drawing me in…until he stops me and steps back.
“This can’t happen Alexia, we can’t happen…I’m sorry.” Jax says flatly not looking in my eyes as he backs away.
“W…what?” I say taken aback, I feel unbearable sorrow coursing through me and I can’t control it no matter how hard I’m trying to be strong.
“You’re human Lex, you are weak. You would never survive the shift if I was to turn you. I’m sorry Lexi but you are fragile…I can’t have a weak Luna. You won’t be able to bear my cubs and I need to continue the blood line.” He says giving me a disgusted look making me take a few steps back.
“No Jax wait, I’m not-” I mumble trying to form the words but he doesn’t let me finish.
“No, it doesn’t matter it has to end this way, I have to… I have to reject you.” Jax says emotionless backing away from me.
As soon as the words reject leave his lips… I bend over in pain, clutching my heart. I lean against the wall holding myself up but Ronny and Rachel keep me from falling.
“How could you do this Jax?” Ronny growls harshly looking at Jax full of digust.
“I have to Ronny, she needs to understand…I’m doing this for her.” Jax says sadly.
The more he speaks and the closer he is, the worse the pain…I don’t know what’s happening to me, my heart feels like it’s going to explode, even after everything that’s been done to me, I can't bear the pain. Everything comes back to me, all the flashbacks, all the memories and all the hurt I’ve experienced comes crashing down on me like a ton of bricks.
Drake, Chloe, Mark and Jax stand close but they don’t come near. I can’t control the tears that roll down my cheeks. The pain is unbearable but I’m not crying because of the pain, I’m crying because Jax doesn’t think I’m good enough for him. He’s never admitted it out loud before and that shatters me.
“Ronny…what’s…happening?” I say trying to catch my breath.
“I’m sorry Lex, it’s the rejection. I don’t know how it works with humans… the pain should weaken eventually but you have to accept his rejection in order for the pain to stop completely.” Ronny says sadly.
There’s a voice in the back of my head telling me not to accept it… just to be strong and show Jax that I’m not the weak girl he sees. Even though my conscience is telling me to hold on, the broken heart within me is telling me to accept his rejection and get the hell away from these boys who have destroyed the person I was.
I was in control of my emotions before I came here, I could keep it inside of me and it made me stronger. It’s true, since I have been here, I’ve become weak and I’m sick of it. I’m tired of people walking all over me and treating me like shit. I will no longer be that weak fragile human that Jax thinks I am.