I hold the chair as I slowly ease my way into it without causing a scene and I eventually get seated. Chloe moves one seat up so she is at the other head of the table right next to me with Ronny opposite me.
I look around at my friends, they obviously noticed I haven't given them my usually hugs when I greet them. I feel Drake sit in the chair next to me and I immediately tense as I feel his arm brushing against my left one, I clench my fist trying not to think about it. I feel soft hands wrap around my hand that’s holding tightly onto the wooden seat. I look up to see Chloe looking sadly at me as she mouths “you okay?” And I nod quickly. Then she glares at Drake next to me who’s currently chatting with Jax that is seated at the other end of the table.
“Are you enjoying living with Alex?” Rachel asks me, I look up to her, she’s obviously trying to start a conversation but I’m really not interested in small talk right now.
“It’s fine thanks, I love it.” I reply giving her a fake smile, I notice Jax at the corner of my eye as he immediately stops talking to Drake and waits to hear my answer but I avoid looking his way at all costs.
Drake puts his arm over the back of my chair and I instantly sit up straight making sure my back doesn’t touch him. He uses his hand and pulls me back into him, I close my eyes and wince as my shoulder comes into contact with his body.
I notice Ronny hasn’t said a word but she seems to be studying me, I look at her and she nods her head towards Drake who's back to having a conversation with the boys at the end of the table. She mouths, “Everything okay?”
I look up to make sure that Drake still has his head turned away from me before I look back at her and reply. I nod my head and try to smile but the smile doesn’t reach my lips.
I look down at the menu in front of me as the waitress comes to take our orders. She is shamelessly checking Drake out, Drake removes his arm from my shoulder and smirks at her as he now takes in full view of her body, from head to toe, Ronny lets out a growl in front of me as well as Rachel.
“Hi there, can I take your orders?” she says looking at each of us but her eyes linger over Drake. Drake orders for me before I can open my mouth to speak.
“She can order her own food Drake.” Ronny scowls.
“I’m paying, so no she can't.” Drake says bitterly not looking at me once, making everyone at the table seam uneasy. I look out into the ocean avoiding everyone’s scrutiny, including Jax’s.
“How about you Drake, What can I get you?” the pretty blond waitress smiles and winks at him.
I wince as he flirts back, “How about you…later?” he says softly with a smile but I can hear him on my side and I’m pretty sure judging by the growls that the rest of the table heard him too. However he avoids everyone as she writes down what I’m guessing is her number on a piece of paper and hands it to him.
I feel everyone’s eyes back on me so I turn my head to look out into the ocean once again. I look at Chloe who’s looking at me with that sad pity filled look and I give her quick smile to make her see I’m okay…even if I’m not.
I’m trying my hardest not to cry and break into one huge sob fest.
What happened to my Drake, my perfect beautiful Drake? What happened to what we had? How can he do this to me? Is this how it’s going to be from now on? If I wasn’t so afraid of the repercussions I would haul ass out of here and never come back.
I stealthily wipe away a stray tear with my one finger, careful not to get any more attention that I'm already receiving and continue to look at the ocean tuning everyone else out and try to get my shit together. There's a reason he’s acting this way. I deserve everything he-
“What the fuck Drake? Lexi is sitting right there!” my thoughts are interrupted when Jax yells at Drake.
“So?” Drake says not giving a fuck that I witnessed the plans he was making to hook up with another girl later. The thought makes me tremble.
I look down at my fingers on my lap, everyone must be confused as to what is happening right now and why I'm just sitting here not saying anything.
Truth is… I’m too scared….
“What is wrong with you? Why are you two so distant? What happened? You weren’t like this yesterday when I saw you two together.” Ronny says slamming her hand on the table making me whimper. She frowns at me giving me a confused look. Chloe puts her hand over my trembling one.
“Dude she couldn’t have been that bad in bed?” Jax blurts out randomly making me grasp and whip my head to look at him along with the other girls. I look over at him wide eyed but he turns his head away as he looks at a couple of the other people that sit around the restaurant clearly avoiding me.