Absolute Beginners(11)

Wow. Just…wow.

I stared at her naked breasts and felt my mouth go dry. My hands lay limply by my side, my fingers twitching at the thought of touching her. If my passivity bothered her, she didn’t show it. She merely smiled and lifted my hands until the soft flesh of her breasts molded itself against my palms. Matt was absolutely right: a handful was perfect, and they were most definitely perky, as he put it. She lowered herself all the way down onto my lap, rocking back and forth.

“Oh…” My accompanying moan was embarrassingly loud to my ears.

“You really like that. Don’t you, Professor?” she teased.

Her words sobered me instantly.

She is my student. I’ll get fired for doing this!

“Stop!” I yelled, bolting upright as she continued to straddle me.

“What is it?”

“We…I…I can’t do this. It’s wrong.” I scrambled to find the right words. I realized that I was still holding her breasts and let go immediately as if they had burnt me.

“I shouldn’t have come up here,” I said quickly. “You’ve been drinking and I’m just…”

Desperate.

“We can’t do this,” I said, averting my eyes from her naked upper body.

She was still sitting on top of me, smelling just right and feeling even better.

“I won’t tell anyone, if that’s what you’re worried about,” she said, sounding very calm.

I looked up at her. “You won’t?”

“No, of course not. Why would I?”

I couldn’t give her a good answer. “If this gets out, I could lose my job,” I said, mostly to myself.

“It won’t. Whatever happens here tonight stays between the two of us.” I looked at her, but couldn’t see anything insincere in her eyes. “Do you want me?” she asked, reaching for my hands again. This time she put them on her naked thighs.

I nodded. I did want her. I hadn’t been with a woman in a long time and I had started to worry I might never again get the chance. Dating and even the act of meeting a new woman in general terrified me. Ms. Wilde didn’t scare me, though. She made me nervous, yes, but not in an entirely unpleasant way.

“Good,” she said, as if the subject was resolved. “Because I really want you, too.”

“Why?” I heard myself asking.

“Why?” she laughed. “Because you’re hot and I’m horny.”

I gaped at her. I had never met a woman who was so open about her sexuality. It was equally exciting and unsettling.

“Do you want to?” she asked me, running her fingers through my hair.

My head fell back, following her hands. I nodded.

“Good, then lie back and enjoy this. Stop thinking so much,” she said, smiling.

I leaned back on my elbows and looked at her again. I suddenly felt brave.

“Take your hair down.”

She loosened her ponytail and shook her head, making her hair fall down around her naked shoulders. I had never seen her hair loose before. It was beautiful. I ran my fingers through it and marveled at its silky softness.

“You should wear it like that every day,” I said.

“You should wear yours like this every day,” she countered with a smirk and tugged on a handful of my uncombed hair. She reached for my glasses. “Can you see without them?”

I nodded and she took them off and placed them on the nightstand. Her eyes roamed over me and she grinned wickedly.

“I want to see the rest of you,” she said, moving down a little to deal with my pants. She pulled them down in one fluid motion, taking my underwear with them. My shoes and socks came off next. I was naked in front of her, fully exposed, and my heart rate went into overdrive.

“Holy shit, Stephen. I didn’t expect that.”

“Um, w-what?” I stammered, daring to look up.

Her eyes were fixed between my legs.

“Well, you’re fucking perfect,” she said matter-of-factly.

Oh…what does that mean?

She leaned forward, pressing soft kisses on my chest, and then moved lower. Lifting her head, she smiled at me, licking her lips suggestively.

Wait. Is she going to…?

“Whoa, you, err, you don’t have to do that,” I said quickly.

She laughed a little, shaking her head. “I wouldn’t do it if I didn’t want to. Don’t you want me to?”

I couldn’t believe that she would really want to do something like that, no matter how much I wanted it, and didn’t know what to say.

“I don’t know,” I said helplessly.

“Wait. Has no one ever done this to you before?” she asked, sitting up.

I shook my head and took a deep breath to calm my nerves.