“Still a good girl,” she said teasingly.
“Not all the time,” I said, trying to be playful. Ivy only glanced towards me, seemed to study me for a moment, and then turned her eyes back to the city.
“I thought I'd be happy once I left but it wasn't that simple,” she said. “Things happen, you know.”
“I know.”
She smiled at me again.
“You're still young, I'm not sure that you do know, but it's alright. You will soon enough.”
Again I was filled with the sense that although she wasn't technically much older than me she had much more life experience.
“Who was that girl in there?” I asked, fearing the answer but knowing I had to ask the question.
“She is...fuck, she's probably the love of my life and I don't know if I'm ever going to be able to escape her. We're not good together, we just end up in bad places, but I just can't help myself.”
“I see.”
She laughed a little. “You're really sweet, you know that?”
My face lit up.
“If you could have one thing in the world what would it be?” she asked. I chewed my lip.
“I'm not sure, you go first.”
“That's not how it works. I asked you.”
“Age before beauty,” I resisted. She narrowed her eyes at me but accepted the challenge.
“Fine. I guess I just want to be happy. I want to be able to be myself and not worry about not being good enough. I want to be with someone and have it just work without all the drama or bullshit. I guess I just want a shot at what everyone else seems to have. Now you go.”
I stepped forward to stand right by her side. We were both looking out onto the city, like we were gods looking down on our kingdom below.
“If you had asked me that a long time ago I would have said the chance to be alone with you. And I think maybe you need someone who has known who you were, not just who you are. I always had the biggest crush on you Ivy...and we've both ended up in this same place. Does that mean anything to you?” I asked, my voice tinged with desperate hope. Ivy flicked her cigarette off the roof. The ashes fluttered like gray snowflakes.
“I'm not what you think I am Selina. I'm not going to be any good for you. You deserve better.”
“I don't care about what I deserve. I care about what I want. Maybe you don't need love right now. Maybe you need companionship. Maybe you just need whatever I can give you. I'm still trying to figure myself out as well but all I know is that I've wanted you since forever, and right now there's only me and you up here.” I took her hand in mine and stood in front of her, searching her eyes for some glimmer of hope. She licked her lips and I could see her staring back at me.
“Selina...” she said, but I didn't let her finish. I leaned forward and stole a kiss from her. I could taste the cigarette on her breath. Her warm lips pressed against mine, getting more eager as our passion grew. Her arms wrapped around my body tightly and my fingers ran through her hair. I grinned as we lifted each other up on our tiptoes and let the world melt away around us. We broke off and I felt her warm breath linger against my face as she caressed my head, planting softer kisses on my cheeks.
“I think maybe I've been waiting for you to catch me up,” she said.
Chapter 7
When we left the bar Brie gave us an evil look but the tattooed woman gave me a look of encouragement. I didn't know where things were going to go with Ivy but I had wanted her for so long that it was burning me up inside and I knew that even if it only lasted one night it would have been worth it.
We rushed back to my apartment, hand in hand the whole way, and as I fumbled for the key I felt her hands exploring my body, reaching around my hips and waist, finding the edge of my top and infiltrating underneath. Arousal flushed through me as I felt her skin against mine, and I twisted my head so that she could kiss me as I inserted the key and twisted it.
We fell through the door.
“You have a...nice place,” she said, pushing me against the now-closed door and pressing her hips into mine. Our breaths were hot and heavy and we clawed at each other to get our clothes off.
“It just needs some work, I have only been here a few days remember,” I said, biting back against her kisses, catching her lip in between my teeth. It only seemed to spur her on. She took my hands and pinned me against the wall. Her hair was all over me as she kissed my neck and sucked on me like a vampire. I writhed under the strain of pleasure as all my fantasies were coming through. The new sensations were almost unbearable and I didn't know how I was going to cope with them. My heart was thundering out of my chest and my body was screaming in ecstasy. Goosebumps rippled over my skin as Ivy's breath and saliva dripped down me. She slithered down my body until she was on her knees. Her hands reached up to grope at my breasts, pinching my bullet nipples through my thin top, making my gasp and shudder. If she hadn't been pushing me against the door I would have fallen to me knees.