"That I wish I'd never seen what I did, and that you didn't have the issues that you do."
"I wish that too. I've never wished for anything more than to rewind time to the night before, so that I could have done everything differently. I would have said no to Darius, held you tight, and never let you go."
"There were other issues too. I struggled with some of your quirks. I hated the fact that you seemed to find me distasteful, you know, down there." I blushed as I said it, but his refusal to do cunnilingus had made me feel as though I had been unclean.
"Distasteful? Is that what you thought? Oh Elle, I've never found any part of you less than beautiful. The truth is that I've never tried it, never actually licked a pussy, and like anything, it becomes a habit. Like I said before, public school fucks you up."
"I see. Oh well, I won't take it personally then. So, changing the subject, what shall we do today?"#p#分页标题#e#
"There's something I'd love to do, but I'm not sure you'd let me..." Oscar looked apprehensive.
"Go on." Please don't ask me for a shag.
"I would love to take you on that shopping trip I promised you."
"I couldn't Oscar, I'd feel like I owed you, and it's not how I want to feel. Ivan bought me that dress and stuff, and I nearly had a bloody meltdown over it. I earn a really good living, and there's nothing I need." He looked disappointed. "How would you feel about me buying you stuff?" He flopped onto his back and thought about it.
"I don't know. It's never happened, so I've got no idea. I'm not trying to buy your affection Elle, I just want to give you a little treat, and make you happy. I like seeing you all polished and sophisticated almost as much as I like seeing you in your pyjamas with your birds nest hair. I hate that Ivan got to do that for you, and I didn't."
"Let's get some tea, and talk about this." I was desperate for a drink, and felt a bit 'put on the spot'. As much as I enjoyed being treated to nice things, I didn't want that awful feeling of being bought and paid for, and I had so many mixed feelings about Oscar that I needed some time to think. Oscar threw on a dressing gown, and passed one of his to me. We went down to the breakfast room to find Mrs Dunton fussing over the tureens, having just made sausage, bacon and eggs. She bustled off to make me a pot of tea, while Oscar helped himself to coffee. We had just sat down to eat when Lady Golding arrived with a cheery smile.
"How lovely to see you again. Oscar told me about the pickle you're in over that dreadful Russian woman. Terrible way for her to behave, especially given your circumstances this week."
"Yes, I'm appalled at it all too. I'm supposed to go to Conde Nast on Monday and oversee some work. I'm dreading it. I'm worried they could snatch me at any time." Lady Golding looked horrified.
"Can't someone else do it, and you stay here until this is all blown over?"
"Apparently Dascha is insisting that Elle is within reach until the deals done. I suggested that too mother. I also offered to put security all around the building until this is over, but Ivan tells me he's already arranged it." Oscar said, looking a little uncomfortable.
"I suggest you put some there anyway, just in case. I don't trust foreigners Oscar. Just the fact that Elle's been dragged into this is bad enough, let alone trusting Podunky to give back a five billion pound company. He's a greedy man, and all it would cost him would be Elle. No, you organise our security to make sure she's not betrayed."
"Of course mother."
"So, have you planned anything for today? It looks like rain, and the forecast isn't very good."
"I wanted to take Elle shopping, but she's not keen. Beyond that, maybe wellies on, and a long walk."
"I thought you liked fashion?" Lady Golding said, frowning slightly.
"I do, but I can buy things for myself, and there's nothing I really need."
"Need never comes into it," she smiled, "he's got nothing to spend his money on, so why not indulge him? Plus it'll be fun in the helicopter. You can trudge through the mud tomorrow."
"Helicopter?" I asked, looking at Oscar.
"Yes, quickest way to get to town and back. I booked it for today." He looked a little sheepish. "Plus it's safer than transporting you by car. I also booked two bodyguards to meet us at Battersea heliport."
"In that case, it would be churlish of me to refuse." I looked up to see Oscar beaming.#p#分页标题#e#
"Good. It arrives here at half nine, so could you be showered and ready by then?"
After breakfast, I headed up to my room to get ready. I was just about to get into the shower when Ivan called. "Still in one piece?"