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By:Padma Venkatraman


            Jim stops typing

            and looks up, startled,

            as though he’s wondering

            why I’m still standing around.

            “Another question I can help with, kiddo?”


“I was trying—wanted to say—I wish—you—I

            hope that decision thing doesn’t get you down.”

            I flee

            as fast as my new leg will let me.





SYMMETRY





“Today, you’ll be moving your hands

            instead of keeping them at your waist,” Govinda says.

            The class twitters with excitement.


Govinda beckons to me.

            “Please come up front?

            I need your help.”

            He stands so close behind,

            I can almost feel his long fingers

            touching my back.


“Watch how Veda holds her head and her neck

            so it lengthens her spine.

            I want you to stand just the way she does.

            Imagine a line passing from the center of your head,

            through your navel, down to your feet.

            Every movement should begin along this line and return to it.

            Hold your arms as evenly as Veda.

            See the perfect symmetry

            with which her right hand mirrors her left?”


The lilting notes of a bamboo flute

            play a melody in my mind.


The remaining class time

            flies.





A TIME

to

SPEAK





First day of school after the summer holidays,

            I pretend Govinda’s standing behind me

            speaking about my perfect stance

            as Chandra and I walk toward school.

            Inside the building, we part ways for the first time.

            She hurries off to join

            the science-math-computer-engineering classes.

            I walk toward the history-literature-language section

            that’s dominated by girls and boys who haven’t got good grades

            or much ambition.


In my new classroom, I see Mekha and Meghna.

            The twins’ long-ago insults ring in my ears.

            Should we start calling cricket stumps something else

            because she has a stump?

            “Look who’s here!” Mekha calls out. “Veda!

            Hey, Veda, does my hair look limp today?”

            Meghna sniggers.


I think of the little kids in my dance class

            who didn’t know any better

            laughing the first time they saw me fall.

            Mekha and Meghna aren’t innocent.

            They’re nasty girls

            who should know better.


The rest of the class is quiet—

            waiting to see what I’ll do.