A Time to Dance(10)
Time melted.
I disappeared.
Now
I twirl so fast
the world vanishes.
Only I exist.
Then
everywhere, in everything, I heard music.
Music I could dance to.
Now
is the music I long for most
the music of applause?
SPEED
Our van rampages down the potholed road
like a runaway temple elephant.
The driver presses the red rubber horn, trumpeting it nonstop,
like every other insane driver in Chennai city
always in a hurry.
Usually it drives me crazy, the useless sound of horns,
the unnecessary speed.
Tonight, the roller-coaster ride provides the exhilaration I need
to stop brooding.
Strangers showered me with praise.
Boys craved
my attention.
Who cares what Kamini says?
I clutch the seat in front of me,
pretend I’m a kid on the giant wheel at the Chennai city fair,
pretend I’m flying
every time the van hits a pothole and throws me into the air.
The driver
swerves.
Monstrous headlights from another vehicle
glare at us.
Brakes screech. Metal grinds against metal.
My body careens sideways.
I see the trunk of a pipul tree looming.
A gray giant
coming closer.
Closer.
“Shiva! Shiva!” someone screams.
A man’s voice
rasps out a swearword.
“Stop! Brake!” Uday anna shouts.
I hear Kamini’s terrified wail. “Aiyo! Aiyo!”
Shattered shards of glass
scatter moonlight.
Pain
sears through me
as though elephants are spearing my skin with sharp tusks
and trampling over my right leg.
The seat in front, torn and twisted,
pins my body down.
Uday anna struggles to lift the crumpled wreckage
of the mud-spattered seat.
The drummer tries to wrench
my trapped body free.
Kamini stares
down at me, shudders,
turns away, retching.
I smell