Guilt swamped him. The last thing she needed from him was criticism. "I know you choose to be coarse, honey. It's not that you don't know any other way."
"Because Jackson sent me to that school. End of story."
But it wasn't and he knew it. "You are far from dumb."
"I know."
"Do you?"
Because she had her last bite of food in her mouth, she just nodded.
He wanted to ask her if she'd finished the school, if she'd gotten a degree, but he feared the answer. When the opportunity presented itself, he'd ask Jackson. "All done?"
She sat back in her seat with a sigh. "That was great. Thanks. I can't remember the last time anyone cooked for me. Maybe Jackson, but that would have been before the school."
"Your mother cooked?"
She laughed but cut it off real quick. "Not really, no."
Pushing his plate aside and crossing his arms on the table, Spencer asked the question burning in his mind. "How did the traffickers get you?"
"You really want to hear this?"
More than anything, he wanted her to trust him. He had to think that confiding in someone else would help ease the pain she carried inside. "If you don't mind telling me."
"It's not like it's a secret. Well, I mean it is, to most people. But not to anyone who already knows me and what I do, and that I was … "
Spencer waited for her to wind down.
Bravado in place, she smirked at him. "My daddy traded me to them for drugs."
Leveled by a dozen different emotions, most prominently rage and pity, Spencer swallowed twice. "How old were you?"
"Seventeen." She chewed her bottom lip, lost in thought. "The older I got, the more his buddies noticed. I heard a few lewd suggestions, stuff said sort of as a joke-but not really, know what I mean?"
"Yes." Bastards.
"I sort of grew into my looks. Pretty soon, they weren't joking anymore."
Jesus. He knew how it worked; human trafficking wouldn't be profitable without buyers. But still, with it so personal, fury left him sick at heart. "Your father knew them?" Knew what they'd do with her? It couldn't get more personal than that.
"Yeah, he knew. I think he admired them for forcing girls into prostitution." Her lip curled. "The sick pricks."
"What about your mother?"
Arizona shrugged. "She let him get away with a lot, including using some of the other girls, even though she knew their situation. But I guess selling me off was too much for her." She looked down at her fork. "Unfortunately, when she tried to stop them, they killed her."
Jesus. And that meant her father would have been a loose end. Already knowing the answer, Spencer asked, "They killed your father, too?" Had she seen it all?
"They did, and I was glad."
So she'd had no one-not that her folks had been much to count on anyway. He had to focus on the fact that she'd eventually escaped. "How'd you get away?"
"After more than a month, I decided I couldn't take it anymore. I knew if I ran they'd try to kill me, but … " She shrugged as if it didn't matter. "I was pretty much dead anyway, you know?"
He had nothing to say to that.
"We were at a truck stop, about to make a transaction, but when I saw a female trucker in an idling semi, I figured that might be my only chance."
"You asked her for help?"
"Get real. I didn't have time for pleasantries." Her lips tilted in a half smile. "That poor woman. I ran over and jumped in her cab. My heart was pumping so fast and I was nearly hysterical. I locked the passenger door, and then I screamed right into her face-drive, drive, drive. Luckily for me … she did."
CHAPTER FOUR
NO MATTER HOW SHE MADE LIGHT of it, the horror of the situation appalled Spencer. "I can imagine what she thought."
"Yeah." Arizona gave a soft laugh. "At first, she figured I was robbing her or something, and she looked ready to jump out of her skin. But then Jerry-"
"Jerry?"
"One of the goons hired as muscle to make sure no one got out of line." She waved that off as unimportant. "Anyway, he came toward us, all fuming with blood in his eyes. When he pulled out his gun, she put that big rig in gear and rolled right out of there. Of course she wanted an explanation, so as soon as we'd covered a little ground, I told her a guy was trying to rape me. Not really a lie, but not the whole truth, either. I just … I couldn't see going into all of it, you know?"
"I understand." And he did. Too many women felt shame at what had been forced on them. Relaying details to a stranger would be painful.
"She wanted to take me to the cops, but I just wanted to be free."
A small word-that meant so much.
"When she hit a quiet stretch of highway, I thanked her, and bailed."
On her own? The idea of a seventeen-year-old abused girl finding shelter and safety boggled his mind. It was a wonder she'd survived-but she had, with attitude galore.
"I know what you're thinking." She shook her head at him. "But it was okay. Luckily it wasn't a cold or rainy season. I boosted a car, but I still needed some paper, so I mugged a drug dealer."
Paper, meaning money. But … she'd tangled with a dealer? "I hope that's an exaggeration."
"Nah. He was a little creep, and I let him think I was interested." She snorted. "He rushed me to his room, and when he got all grabby, I snatched his gun from him."
Hiding his horror, Spencer asked, "You shot him?"
She looked at him like he was nuts. "A gunshot would've drawn attention."
And that had been her only reason for not murdering the guy? "I see."
"I went old-school and pistol-whipped the punk." She made a "clunk" motion with her hand. "Clubbed him right on his melon. I had to hit him twice to really put him out. The first one only dazed him. But when I left he was breathing."
"And then you took his cash?"
"Yeah. I was hoping for enough to get food, but the dude had five C-notes!"
"Five hundred dollars?" Spencer whistled. Losing that much would put any crook into a foul mood. Thank God she'd gotten away. "You left the area?"
"Scooted right out of there, with his money and his gun." Proud of herself, she grinned. "Within two days of running, I had a car, plenty of cash and a weapon. I headed to another town, found a place to stay. I figured what worked once would work again, so most of my spending money came from traveling to other areas and robbing drug dealers. Occasionally I cashed up by gambling."
The idea of her besting an armed thug should have been ludicrous, but he'd seen her in action. Given her size and how she looked, she probably took plenty of guys by surprise. "You learned to fight by fighting?"
"Survival is a good teacher." She smirked. "Back then, I preferred the gambling."
"And now you prefer fighting?"
She didn't answer that. "I win a lot because I'm a good cheat. I'm also a good thief, and I'm really good at picking locks."
Because she'd spent so much time locked in.
With an effort, Spencer kept his tone neutral. "If those skills are what helped you get by, then I'm glad you had them."
"Even though I broke into your house?"
Keeping his gaze on his tea glass, he offered, "You could have a key if you want."
"Seriously? You trust me?"
He didn't, not really. Not with everything. Definitely not with too much intimacy.
But with his belongings?
He met her mocking gaze. "Would you rob me?"
"No!"
"That's what I thought. So why not give you a key?"
Skepticism kept her quiet for a long study. Finally she smiled. "That's real big of you, Spence."
"Spencer," he corrected with strained patience. He knew she shortened his name whenever she got annoyed-or felt vulnerable.
"But I don't need a key." She turned away with feigned disinterest. "Not like I plan to come here that often."
Probably not, but he wouldn't mind if she did. Whether arguing with her, wrestling with her, or having dinner, he enjoyed her company. "Then feel free to break in whenever the mood strikes you."
"Pffft." She half laughed. "You just took all the fun out of it."
Spencer smiled in return, but he in no way felt amused. He couldn't imagine what kind of guts it took, or how it would shape a person, to live through what she'd described. He knew the basics from Jackson, but while she was in a talkative mood, he wanted to hear it-all of it-from her perspective.