“I couldn’t understand. I still don’t completely understand how you could mate someone and then leave them. It’s not our way.” They had agreed to being honest. He needed to stay true to that bargain. “I’m still nervous that I’ll get in deep with you and that you’ll up and leave or that something else will come to light. I guess I’m mostly worried about you changing your mind about me in years to come. I am fucking petrified.”
She blinked a few times. The light catching the tears on her lashes. “There is nothing else to tell you. I’ve told you everything.” Her eyes were wide. “I want to be with you…only with you. I want to try.”
Thank fuck! Maybe they could be together then, the next few days would tell. “We need to take it slow. Really slow.”
Jenna licked her lips and he couldn’t help but to watch as her little pink tongue slid across the full expanse. She nodded. “That’s a good idea.”
He nodded. “We can get to know one another again. There is also the little problem of my not being in the breeding program. I technically can’t come anywhere near you.”
“I’m sure if you went and discussed this with your kings…” She paused, biting down on her bottom lip. “I’m sure they would understand.”
He couldn’t help the choked laugh that escaped. Like fuck. “No, they so won’t understand. Like I said, let’s take this really slow. We shouldn’t rush into anything anyway and in the meantime I’ll figure something out.” It was close to impossible, but he would find a way.
“We only have a couple of days before I get kicked out. The guys get to choose a woman that they want to spend more time with. Trouble is, I haven’t spoken with any of the guys. The only person I’ve made any effort with is Lazarus. As a friend.” She quickly added the last, she must have felt his body tightened. It felt like a storm clouds descended over him at the mention of another male’s name. Even though Lazarus had explained the friendship to him. Even though he knew that there was nothing between the two of them. He had never gotten over this female, so it didn’t surprise him.
“I feel completely drained. I know there is one more chance tonight, but please don’t ask me to make an effort to try and get one of the guys to notice me…or something crazy like that so I can stay.”
He growled and felt his lip curl away. Like fuck.
Her eyes widened and she sucked in a ragged breath.
“Don’t be afraid,” he whispered. “It’s just that the thought of you trying to seduce one of the males, getting them to pick you. It makes me a little crazy. I would never hurt you though…not ever. Stay away from those horny bastards.” He smiled at her.
Thankfully, she smiled back. Just a tiny ghost of a smile but it still had the ability to make his fucking day.
“I do need you to go tonight. I don’t want you drawing attention. Spend time with Lazarus like you normally would.” Fuck but she had the most beautiful eyes. The most kissable lips. Her hair was so soft. Her scent enough to drive him to distraction. He needed to keep reminding himself to take this slow. “I’m going to have a chat with him. I don’t think he plans on choosing a female. I’m going to ask him if he would consider choosing you.”
She looked confused for a few seconds. “I don’t understand why you can’t get into the program. Surely there must be a way.”
Gideon shook his head. “The ten elite males that made it into the program fought their way in. I chose not to take part. I can’t just be given a place…it doesn’t work like that.” He took a deep breath. “Go to the dance. I’ll speak with Lazarus. The two of you will really need to look like you’re hitting it off tonight. He will take you back to his suite, I will be there waiting.” Gideon swallowed hard, he’d never been more unsure of anything. “That is, if you want to meet me. We can talk. No sex.” He sounded like an immature, inexperienced teenager and forced himself to shut the fuck up.
“I would like to meet you later.” She stood up on her tippy toes. Her breasts smashed against his chest. She cupped his jaw in her little hands. The scent of her arousal filled the air.
Fuck.
His dick instantly hardened. Becoming rock fucking hard within a mere two seconds.
“It will be fun,” she said.
“We can talk, maybe hold each other a little. No sex.” he repeated. Fuck but he was a pussy. Gideon shrugged.
Her lips were so full, so pink, so damned moist. His dick twitched when she pushed herself more firmly against him. He bit back a moan.