A Little Harmless Fantasy(30)
“Are you going to go tell my brother?” she asked.
“Of course not. I might be married to him, but I know better than that. He needs to let go and let things happen. His control freak nature is the reason you’re here. I’m going to warn you though; your brother might sniff it out. He might try and pretend it isn’t happening, but I have a feeling it will hit him if you spend any time with him while you’re here. It will be hard on him to accept. I think in his head he still thinks you’re a virgin.”
Maura shook her head. “He does not.”
“He pretends at least.”
She rolled her eyes. “Men. You should have seen the way he reacted when I told him I had lost my virginity.”
There was a beat of silence. “Wait, when was that?”
“You know when that happened. I told you about it.”
Jillian waved that away. “No, not losing it. When you told him?”
“Oh, when I went up to DC to see him a few weeks later. He didn’t take it the way I thought he would. I mean at the time. Now, I understand.”
“I would have paid a thousand dollars—and I mean it—to have seen that.”
“Yeah, he didn’t look at me for over a whole day.”
“I can imagine. Guys don’t like hearing stuff like that about their sisters, especially with him being the authority figure in your life.”
“Well, I told him I didn’t know what all the fuss was about. I mean, it was over so quickly with Jed.”
Jillian snorted. “Oh, please tell me you said that to him.”
She blinked. “Of course I did. I thought he could tell me what was wrong. He got a weird look on his face and just walked away.”
Jillian laughed. “Why didn’t you ask me?”
“Well, if you want to know the truth, I was embarrassed. I mean, he was so fast I thought it had something to do with me, or that I was frigid because nothing happened for me. I did research but it was all so vague so I asked him later about a woman being frigid.”
“Thank you. I am going to use that against him in the future.” She crossed her arms beneath her breasts. “So, spill, when did this start?”
“On the ride over.”
Another beat of silence. “Oh. My. God. Woman, when you let loose, you really let loose. Little Maura Dillon a member of the Mile High Club. And not just one guy in a small stall. Two guys, a bed, and a private plane. You do me proud. How was it?”
She sighed. “It was actually very wonderful. And we haven’t even started playing with submission. Rory is a Dom, but only with women, and well, the one thing Zeke likes to do is watch him make a woman submit.”
“But?”
She looked at Jillian then out over the water again. “I’m not sure what I’m getting myself into. They’re together, this is just for the week that we are here.”
“Are you hoping for more?”
That scared her. Even now she didn’t want to think about going back to Miami and being left behind. It would hurt, probably more than losing Zeke the first time. Resisting would have been futile though. They would have just overwhelmed her at every turn. And now, she wouldn’t just be losing one of them. She would be losing Rory too. She wanted both of them so much now. She closed her eyes as if that would help.
Jillian said nothing, so Maura opened her eyes.
“Are you?” she asked again.
“God, I don’t know. You know how I feel about Zeke.”
“You love him. You have for a long time,” Jillian said quietly. She had been the one who had picked up on Maura’s feelings before Maura knew what was going on.
“Yeah, and I find Rory over the top attractive. To make it worse, he’s a talker.”
“Oh, wow. A Dom who is a talker, and they like to do each other. Talk about Maura’s dream come true.”
She didn’t regret telling Jillian her fantasies, but her friend was always so bold in stating them. While Maura believed in being cautious, Jillian thought it best to face your desires head on. Telling her that she had a thing for bisexual men probably hadn’t been the smartest thing Maura had done, but they had been drinking at the time.
Jillian frowned at her. “Don’t look like that. There is nothing wrong with your needs. Who are you hurting?”
Maura shook her head and smiled. “No one. I just hope that at the end of the week I’ll be able to walk away.”
“I would just play it by ear.” Maura’s spine stiffened and Jillian rolled her eyes. “I know that’s hard for you Dillons, but in this one week, let it go. Have fun, enjoy. You might learn a lot about yourself.”
She nodded feeling a little better. Jillian always put everything into perspective. “Why don’t we head back? The boys have been playing shop long enough and all of you look like you need a nap.”