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A Husband's Regret (The Unwanted Series)(45)

By:Natasha Anders


"I never quite understood what you saw in me," she admitted on a whisper, and he sighed quietly.

"Bronwyn, I don't know how much clearer I can make this, so listen up.  To me . . . You. Are. Stunning. Sometimes I can't stare at you for too  long because it almost physically hurts me to look at you. It's crazy,  my chest tightens and burns to the point of actual pain until I remind  myself to breathe." He smiled bittersweetly. "That has happened more  often than I care to reveal. You're so lovely that something as  fundamental as breathing becomes damned near impossible around you."

She searched his harsh face for any sign of deception, but his strong  jaw was clenched, his eyes almost hard, and she knew that it couldn't  have been easy for him to reveal that particular tidbit to her. She  really affected him that strongly.

"You've stolen my breath on numerous occasions too, you know," she  confessed, reaching over to stroke his jaw. The server chose that moment  to return with Kayla's apple juice, and Bronwyn's hand dropped down to  the table, where she started toying with her dessert spoon.

She thanked the server for the juice and reached into the baby bag for  Kayla's sippy cup. After transferring the juice from the glass into the  cup, she screwed the top on tightly and gave it to Kayla, who was not  very happy about having the grown-up glass confiscated.

She refused to take her juice from the sippy cup, and Bronwyn gave her a  sip of the leftover juice in the glass. She refused again and tried to  take the glass from her mother. When Bronwyn moved the glass a safe  distance away from her, she started kicking up a fuss. She was showing  all the telltale signs of a toddler in desperate need of a nap and on  the verge of a tantrum. Bronwyn had only to glance over at Bryce before  he summoned the server over for the bill. Their conversation was put on  immediate hold as their parental roles took precedence.

They packed up and left the restaurant pretty quickly, and as he drove  them home, with a crying Kayla strapped into her car seat, Bronwyn felt a  pang of regret over yet another unfinished conversation.



Bryce found Bronwyn in the conservatory a few hours later, sitting on  the sofa with her legs tucked beneath her and a glass of wine in her  hand. She was staring pensively out as the sun dropped gracefully into  the ocean and set the horizon on fire. It was a beautiful sunset, but if  Bronwyn's somber face was anything to go by, she wasn't fully  appreciating the sun's last hurrah as it fled from the night. She was  running one elegant finger round and round the rim of her wineglass, her  restlessness betrayed by the swift, repetitive movement.

Bryce glanced down at the sheaf of papers he held in his hand and shut  his eyes as he sent an uncharacteristic and desperate prayer to a God he  hadn't really acknowledged since he was a boy. He was all out of  options here. He had no choice but to give her what she wanted.





  

"Bronwyn," he murmured, and she jumped, nearly spilling the wine. She  blinked up at him as if surprised to see him standing there. She  self-consciously tucked an errant strand of brown hair behind her ear.

"Bryce, you startled me." He sat down next to her and turned to face her.

"Sorry about that," he apologized. "I just wanted to give you these." He  handed over half of the papers he was holding, and she put the glass  onto a side table to take hold of the documents. She stared blankly down  at the big, bold words at the top of the first sheet.

"That was fast," she murmured. He reached over and angled her jaw  upward, and she realized that he hadn't been able to read her lips. She  repeated the three words, keeping her face determinedly neutral.

"I had them drawn up last week. I gambled on the fact that I knew you well enough to guess which place you'd go for."

"Why bother showing me the other places then?" she asked, and Bryce  shrugged. Yes, he'd been confident she would go for the last place, but  he had wanted her to have choices and . . . he had wanted to spend time  with her.

His first instinct was to cling to his reticence, but all her  accusations of secrecy were valid. He had kept things from her-important  things that would probably have made a big difference to their  marriage. But if he wanted any kind of future with her, he would have to  let go of his fear of appearing weak and vulnerable in her eyes and  keep her "in the loop," so to speak. And if that meant keeping her up to  date on the minutia of his every fleeting thought, then so be it.

"I wanted the choice to be yours. You may have hated that last one. I didn't want to presume too much."

"And yet you went ahead and drew up the necessary paperwork?" she asked with an incredulous little shake of her head.

"I like to be prepared," he muttered, abashed. "All you have to do is  sign these and the flat will be yours. Finances have been taken care  of." Naturally.

"Still you could have taken me to three or four places instead of eight."

He sighed and bit the bullet.

"I also wanted to spend some time with you and Kayla," he confessed. He  could see the shock in her eyes and wondered if it was a result of his  words or the fact that he'd actually said them out loud. He watched her  luscious lips form an o and took a deep breath before rushing in to the  next bit of this ordeal.

"I wanted to spend some time with you before I gave you these," he said,  holding out a second sheaf of papers. He had a moment's hesitation when  she reached for them and tightened his grip when she tried to take  them. After a brief tug of war, he reluctantly released the papers and  stepped back. He tried to gauge her reaction, but her usually open face  had closed up and revealed not a single emotion as she read the top of  the first page. He was breathing in uneven gasps, and he counted slowly  to twenty, then thirty, as he tried to regulate his breathing.

She looked up at him and the impact of her devastated gaze hit him like a  two-ton truck. She said nothing for the longest time, and when she  spoke her words nearly sent him to his knees in agony.

Thank you, she signed.

Bryce nodded before turning and walking away.



Bronwyn stared at the signed divorce decree in her hands for the longest  time and now understood that the restaurant hadn't been a  counterattack, it had been a farewell. For an endless age shock kept her  numb, but by agonizingly slow degrees feeling returned. She felt . . .  raw. Her entire body felt like an open, festering wound. She sat  perfectly still, afraid to move because even the simple act of blinking  was excruciating. When she allowed herself the luxury of crying, it  wasn't a cathartic act meant to heal. Instead the tears lodged in her  throat and scalded her skin like acid.

She had gotten what she had asked for. Her marriage was over.



Hours later she found herself staring at the front door of the only  place she could think of to go. She rang the doorbell, and after several  minutes a disheveled-looking Rick opened the door. He blinked down at  her in confusion.

"Bron?"

At the sound of his voice the fragile control she'd managed to exert  over her emotions shattered, and she burst into tears and launched  herself into his arms. He folded her into his embrace and murmured  soothing little sounds into her hair. "What's this now? Shhh,  sweetheart, it's okay. It's okay." He was drawing her farther into the  house. And after a few long minutes of inconsolable weeping, Bronwyn  surfaced enough to take in her surroundings.

She was sitting on a sofa, curled up against Rick's bare chest, which  was now slick with her tears. Lisa was sitting on her other side,  patting her back comfortingly.





  

"I'm sorry," she whispered, her voice hoarse after her extended bout of  crying. "You were asleep. I wasn't thinking of the time." They were both  dressed for bed. Rick in loose pajama bottoms and Lisa in a tank top  and shorts. A quick glance up at the clock on the wall told her that it  was nearly midnight.

"Don't worry about it," Rick dismissed. "Tell us what happened. You didn't drive here in this state did you?"

She blinked in confusion, trying to gather her thoughts.

"No. No, of course not. Cal brought me." She vaguely recalled waking the  man up and remembered the concerned glances he kept directing at her  via the rear-view mirror. Lisa held up a box of tissues, and Bronwyn  gratefully took one and blew her nose.

"Is Kayla okay?" Rick asked urgently.

"Yes, she's fine. She's with B-Bryce." She stumbled over his name and  almost lost it again. "He signed the p-papers," she told them, and  Lisa's eyes immediately went soft and sympathetic. Rick merely looked  confused.

"What papers?" he asked.

"The d-divorce papers," she whispered, and Lisa hugged her fiercely.

"Aaah God." Rick sounded pained.

"I'm so sorry, Bronwyn," Lisa said.

"I thought this was what you wanted." Rick's confusion was obvious, and Bronwyn glanced up into his bewildered face.

"It's for the best," she said. "But it still hurts, Rick. It hurts so  much. I never stopped loving your brother. I just can't . . . live with  him anymore. Do you understand?"