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A Husband's Regret (The Unwanted Series)(33)

By:Natasha Anders


"Smile, sweetheart," he urged into her ear, and she was startled into  obeying. The tourist took three pictures in quick succession before  handing the camera back to Bryce.

"You have a great-looking family, mate," he said in a thick Aussie  accent before handing back the camera and heading off with a wave.

When they left the aquarium, Bryce pushed Kayla's cart while Bronwyn  tucked her hand into the crook of his elbow to maintain contact. Cal and  his team were taking their brief to remain discreet so seriously that  Bronwyn didn't even see them. Bryce led the way toward one of the many  restaurants dotting the waterfront, a Greek place that served fabulous  food, and they sat down at a table beneath one of the umbrellas out in  the early autumn sunshine. They were quiet for a while, watching the  world go by, until Bryce broke the silence.

"Thank you."

She lifted surprised eyes to his solemn face. "For?"

"Earlier." He cleared his throat and she watched his Adam's apple bob  sexily as he swallowed. "Thank you for earlier. Crowds are . . .  difficult for me. Ever since the accident I can't stand being in large  crowds. It's so bizarre. There I am with all these people around me and I  know there should be noise, voices, footsteps, and laughter, but  instead there's nothing. It's like being in a huge void, until I'm  jostled and then it feels like being ambushed because I didn't see or  hear it coming. After the accident I was so paranoid, I kept wondering  who was behind me, kept imagining someone was there, and I'd turn around  so quickly that I'd startle everyone around me, only there'd be no one  there, but I'd immediately get the same feeling and turn again. I knew  that it would only be a matter of time before it would get to the point  where I'd just keep turning round and round and round until I went  insane. So before that could happen I . . ."

"You shut yourself in," she completed, and he nodded.

"It's crazy, I know," he confessed, and she smiled with a shake of her head, covering his lightly trembling hand with her own.

"No, it's not. You lost one of your senses, Bryce. Naturally there'd be  physical, mental, and emotional repercussions. I read that people go  through the stages of grief after losing their hearing. Did you . . .  did you talk to anyone after the accident?"





  

"You mean a psychiatrist?" he clarified dryly. "I was seeing one for  nearly a year; it's because of him that I was able to even contemplate  coming out today. I was so much worse immediately after the accident and  I very stubbornly refused to talk to anyone. Yes, I was in denial and  furious that something like this could have happened to me, but I shoved  it aside because I had something bigger to take care of. I was adamant  that talking to shrinks could wait. But Pierre and Rick kind of forced  my hand. They blackmailed me into seeing someone."

"How?" she asked, curious. One thing she knew about her stubborn husband  was that when he made up his mind about something, it was very  difficult to get him to change it again. He cleared his throat and  gulped down a healthy mouthful of white wine.

"At the time, my sole purpose was to find you," he admitted. "But I was  so incapacitated and the only two people I trusted to help me with that  were Rick and Pierre. They had private detectives working on it and  because of my antisocial phobias, they were the ones who dealt with  those detectives. They threatened to stop acting as liaisons between the  detectives and me if I didn't see someone. I couldn't let that happen,  and since I knew I wouldn't be able to deal with the detectives myself, I  had no choice but to comply with their demands. I resented the hell out  of them for imposing that ultimatum, but in the end, Bron, they saved  my sanity." They remained silent for a while after that, while Bronwyn  thought about everything that he had revealed.

"And the . . . the deafness is permanent?" She asked the question that  she had been too scared to broach before and winced at the immense of  amount of pain that darkened his eyes. "There's nothing they can do  about it?"

"To put it in the simplest of terms, I suffered major nerve damage in  both ears. I hit my head so hard that the doctors told me I was lucky  that deafness was my only major, lasting injury. Lucky, can you believe  that?" His voice rang with outrage at the memory, and he shut his eyes  briefly before shaking his head and meeting her eyes again. "They told  me that the damage to my right ear is less catastrophic and said that an  operation might restore some of the function."

"It didn't work?" she asked sympathetically, aching for him. What he had  done to her was unforgivable, but he had paid in spades for it already,  and she found herself unable to hate or resent him any longer. She just  felt numb and confused.

"I didn't have the operation," He shrugged and she blinked. Stunned by that information.

"What? Why?"

"It seemed pointless." His jaw was set, and while she longed to prompt  him for more information, she sensed that he wouldn't be receptive to  any more questions. She sighed, his stubbornness and uncommunicativeness  merely serving to remind her of why she felt their marriage no longer  stood a chance of working. Yes, he had paid for his unforgivable and  baffling reaction to her pregnancy, but they had so many other  insurmountable problems.

"I'm sorry that this happened to you, Bryce," she said earnestly. "I'm so sorry."

"I'm not the only one who suffered, Bron." For the first time since it  happened, he was brushing it off because there was so much more he  needed to know about what had happened to her during those lost years.  "After you left the hospital, what happened? Where did you go? Who took  care of you?"

"I really don't want to talk about this," she began hesitantly.

"Please." The single, softly spoken word undid her more than any other  could have, and she lowered her eyes to her peacefully sleeping daughter  before lifting them back to Bryce.

"Thanks to selling the car, I had enough money for a few months' rent  and food. Luckily Kayla was a healthy baby, and I didn't have to worry  about extra doctor's bills."

"What about you? How were you after her birth?"

"We coped, Bryce," she said. "I stayed home for a month and a half and  my next-door neighbor, Linda, would often drop by to do some of the  cooking for me. The first few times I went out job-hunting, Linda  babysat Kayla for me. Eventually I got the job in Plettenberg Bay, where  I ran into Rick and Lisa, and the rest is history." The censorious  glint in his eyes told her what he thought of the huge gaps in her  story.

"Where did Kayla stay while you were at work?"

"Linda usually took care of her but Linda was elderly, and she . . . she  died just before Rick found me. I got sick soon after her death, and  the day I ran into Rick was my first day back at work. I hadn't found a  replacement for Linda and had to hire a babysitter for the day." Her  situation had been utterly desperate. Heartbroken over her friend's  death, broke, and sick, she was at her wits' end. If Rick had not found  her that day, she didn't know what she would have done. Odds were she  would have lost her job that day anyway as she had been making too many  mistakes.





  

Bryce didn't need her to spell it out to understand how bad the  situation had been, and a grim silence settled over them while they  contemplated their roast lamb and potatoes, appetites lost.

"How was your health after her birth, Bron?" he asked again, alerting  her to the fact that he had noticed her earlier evasiveness on that  matter.

"It was . . . I wasn't . . ."

He maintained steady eye contact, and she bit her bottom lip before  shrugging and giving him the brutal, unvarnished truth. "I was often  sick. I was weak after giving birth and didn't get enough rest after  taking Kayla home from the hospital. I was up at all hours, feeding and  changing her, and then I was back at work. I never fully recovered and  couldn't afford health care for myself since all of my money was  assigned to buying food and clothes for Kayla. I ate leftovers at work  whenever I could and the odd sandwich when I couldn't. It sounds worse  than it was, Bryce."

"So when you got the flu . . ." He left the statement unfinished and she nodded.

"Yes, it raged out of control because my immune system had taken such a  beating in the past. The day Rick found me, the only reason I was at  work was because Gerhard would have given my job to someone else if I'd  missed one more day, and I wasn't getting paid for staying at home. I  couldn't afford the doctor and had been fending off the flu with cheap  over-the-counter stuff."

"Bron," he began.

"I know it was irresponsible, Bryce. I know that I had a baby to take care of and I could have gotten seriously ill or worse-"

"You were seriously ill," he interrupted, but she continued as if there hadn't been an interruption.