A Hollywood Bride(31)

I let her rant. She’ll have to get it out of her system before she can carry on a rational conversation. I catch TJ in my peripheral vision and walk out onto the balcony, closing the door behind me. He doesn’t need to hear our conversation.

While she fires off a hundred words a minute, I take in the view. The city goes on like nothing major’s happened. The people who attacked me are probably down there somewhere. Are they proud of themselves? Are they going to pretend they didn’t do anything wrong?

Finally Bethany slows down. “Okay. Okay. So.” She sounds breathless.

“So.”

“Are you at Ryder’s?”

“No.”

“Paige! You can’t just go to your apartment! You have to find a secure, safe place. Preferably with gates and guards.”

“Um, actually—”

“I said you could stay with us as long as you want, but I don’t know if I can keep you safe. I’d feel better if you went back to Ryder.” Anxiety adds force and speed to her words. “I saw how his mansion was. I’m sure nobody can get to you there.”

“Actually, I’m at Anthony’s.”

That puts the brakes on her. “Who?”

“Someone I know,” I say, being a bit vague. “He owns Z,” I add, hoping that associating him with something she knows is legitimate will alleviate her worry.

“I see.” A short pause. “So…why are you with him and not Ryder?” Her voice doesn’t contain any censure, but it isn’t exactly approving either. I would say she’s concerned and maybe even a little worried.

I sigh. “It’s complicated.” And probably poorly thought out. Now that I know the depth of Lauren’s betrayal, I’m not at all certain it’s a smart idea for me to stay with Anthony.

“Paige, are you one hundred percent sure about breaking things off with Ryder?”

I can’t answer her. I thought that would be best, but when he came for me in the midst of chaos… I’ve never seen him so worried or concerned. As trite as it sounds, he looked like an avenging angel coming to save me, eyes flashing and fists pumping. He threw himself into the crowd without any worry for his own safety or his image or…anything.

“Ryder offered me a job,” I blurt out. I’d been thinking about it when those people decided to mob me. Otherwise I might’ve been more aware of my surroundings.

“He did?”

“Yeah. He said I’m going to need the money and benefits, which is true. He even offered to pay for my obstetrician. She’s amazing, but she doesn’t take insurance.”

Bethany’s quiet for a moment. “Do you want to go back to working for him?”

“No. Well, yes.” I sigh. “I don’t know.” I rest my elbows on the railing and cup my forehead in my free hand. “He didn’t say anything I hadn’t already thought of. It’s going to be so much harder for me to get a job with the…scandal and being pregnant and all. And even though I think I’ve been awesome at my job, he can always find somebody else. I’m not arrogant enough to think I’m irreplaceable. And I do need some money, and I have to have insurance.”

“Is that all there is?”

“What do you mean?”

“You didn’t tell me everything, and I’m sure there’s stuff I can’t understand since I’m not the one in the relationship with him. And I’ve never dated anybody that famous or high-profile. But before you make any final decisions, don’t just think about the bad things, but the good things as well. I had my doubts when I heard you were engaged to Ryder, but when I saw how he looked at you and defended you against his stepmother at the dinner…” She trails off. I can imagine her eyebrows pinching. She always does that when she’s debating or thinking. “It made me feel good about you and Ryder. Mom and Dad thought so, too.”

“They did?” Simon thought Ryder was a womanizing jerk. Okay, maybe not quite a jerk, but something pretty close.

“Yeah. I spoke with them at the party. Dad said he felt a bit relieved about the two of you.”

That’s news to me. I had no idea.

“Paige, all relationships require work. It’s just that…sometimes the payoff isn’t worth it. So if you feel that way about Ryder, then I support your decision to end the relationship. If not, then…”

“But he doesn’t trust me, Bethany,” I say. “That’s why I thought it’d be better if we stop now, before we go too far.”

She thinks about that for a few moments. “Did he say he doesn’t trust you?”