A Dog's Life

After-Life



Early one evening in September 1990, I picked up the telephone and dialled a familiar number. The time was five past six. A couple of minutes later, I realized why I was getting no response. The friend I was calling had been dead since March.

I put down the phone and sat in silence for a while. My action had been happily automatic, I understood with dismay. I had forgotten, in my eagerness to communicate with her, that her sufferings were over and that she was lying in the same grave as the man she loved, in a quiet country churchyard. She was at rest and I, it seemed, was the perturbed spirit.

I had been living alone since the death of my long-term companion in 1986. Except that I wasn’t on my own, in reality, because I had a dog for company. I had acquired her the previous year, in peculiar circumstances that are related in this collection of memories and musings. She enslaved me from the very first moment of seeing her, and as the months went by I began to wonder if I was starting to emulate J. R. Ackerley, that famous late convert to canine charm. I remembered that the poet William Plomer, a close friend of Ackerley and E. M. Forster, had told me how ‘that bloody dog’ had taken possession of Joe to such an extent that he and Forster were loath to visit the flat in Putney Ackerley shared with his adored Queenie. (Queenie is ‘Evie’ in the novel We Think the World of You, and ‘Tulip’ in the memoir My Dog Tulip – the curious little gems he wrote towards the end of his life.) Would my own friends and acquaintances hesitate before coming to see me for fear of being nipped and barked at by the tireless Circe? I hoped not, though some of them found the business of diverting her a bore, and occasionally said so.

But Circe was not like Queenie in any respect other than beauty. Joe had recognized a kindred, wounded spirit in the bitch he rescued from his lover’s unthinking, working-class parents, whose idea of exercise was to let the creature out in the back yard, which was the size of the proverbial postage stamp. (Some neighbours of mine, the Patels, emigrants from Idi Amin’s Uganda, kept an Alsatian to protect their newspaper and tobacco shop. They had been advised that an unexercised dog would be more ferocious at warding off intruders and burglars than a healthy, contented one. The unnaturally obese animal escaped when the Patels’ children forgot to close the door behind the counter. The dog, sensing freedom, leapt over the display of sweets and chocolate bars, and dashed out of the shop. He must have run for miles, because he was never traced in west London.) Ackerley, like me, had been indifferent to dogs for most of his life. But the sight of the disconsolate, whimpering Queenie, and the feelings of outrage and pity it invoked, was to afford him an inseparable, loving relationship of a kind he had been unable to sustain with a succession of ‘ideal’ youths. Their relationship was so close, in fact, that Queenie’s jealousy of Joe’s friends became uncontainable.

Circe had known neither cruelty nor negligence when I chanced upon her in 1985. I had no cause to rescue her. It was clear from the outset that she would not be jealous of the people I knew, whom she invariably greeted with a welcoming bark and a briskly wagging tail. She was a flirt until the end of her days, never happier than when a gentle hand was stroking her tummy. Bitches have an embarrassing habit of attaching themselves to human legs in ways that appear sexually provocative, and Circe was just such a bitch. She showed a certain discrimination in her choice of leg, however, giving me reason to wonder why X’s was preferable to Y’s. Her chosen victim would laugh nervously, or blush from the shock of her abandoned advances, or call her a shameless tart while attempting to extricate himself from her passionate clutch.





Strangers, beguiled by the dog at my side, stopped to talk to her and, sometimes, to me. The strangest of these lonely, garrulous folk was Marjorie, who lived nearby with a bedraggled black mongrel, ignored by Circe, and a changing selection of cats. I could never quite place her accent, with its faint hint of Eastern Europe. Marjorie’s chatter was concerned with the injustices meted out to the likes of us by Those in Authority. As she grew angrier, she tossed her head back and I was granted a view of her snarling, discoloured teeth. Animals, bless them, were better than human beings, she maintained, and much more trustworthy. I nodded agreement.

Following the death of my companion, David, Marjorie felt compelled to offer me sympathy and commiseration. Except that she had our names confused, in spite of my quiet and firm efforts to correct her. ‘You must be missing Paul, David,’ she’d say, and I would respond ‘I’m Paul. It’s David who’s dead.’ Our meetings turned into a tiny comedy for me, thanks to her inevitable ‘Paul’s in heaven, bless him’ and ‘Paul’s happier out of it’ and ‘You look happy today, David, like the cat who’s got the cream’ and an uncountable number of similar remarks.