However, as long as she was willing to take me as I was, there was no way in hell I was letting her go.
"QUINN."
Oh yeah. Fuck yeah. The breathy way she moaned my name as I fucked her drove me wild. The way her silky, wet heat squeezed my cock as I pumped in and out of her nearly killed me.
Nothing existed when we were like this. The world outside of the two of us disappeared every time I was buried deep inside her. It was yet another thing she gave me, another piece of goodness I'd never be able to return.
"So goddamn beautiful," I grunted, as I watched her beautiful face twist with pleasure I was giving her. Her eyes opened and those amber depths flashed darker as she lifted her hips in time with my thrusts, reaching for her release.
My greedy girl.
I fucking loved it.
She gave so much of herself to everyone she cared about. The fact that she took when we were together gave me a high unlike anything I'd ever felt. If this was all I had to give her, then I was determined to make it count.
"Please," she whimpered when I slowed down, dragging it out as long as possible. "I'm so close."
My jaw clenched as I bit out, "Not yet."
"Oh God." Her neck bowed and I could feel her getting closer. Her pussy clenched around me every time I pulled out. I was seconds away from blowing, but I wouldn't let her come. Not until I was ready.
"Not. Yet. Hold on, baby. Come with me."
"I can't." Her head began to thrash, sending waves of blonde hair cascading over her pillow. "Oh shit, hurry. Please."
I drove into her … hard. Once … twice … three times then buried my cock deep and held, a growl bursting from my throat as I poured myself into her.
"Now, Lilly!"
The second I started coming, her mouth opened on a silent scream that turned into a long, drawn out moan as every muscle in her body locked up.
"Quinn!" she shouted at the very peak of her release as she drained every drop from me. Each orgasm with Lilly got better and better, to the point I worried that one of them might actually kill me. But shit, I'd die a happy man.
I dropped my head into the crook of her neck as we both worked to get our breathing under control. I stayed that way for what felt like an eternity, simply enjoying the feel of her silky hair on my face, her soft skin against mine. In the rare moments like this one, I was able to let everything go and just be as Lilly's fingers trailed gentle paths up and down my back. She was greedy while we fucked, but once it was finished she went back to giving, with no hesitation. And I readily accepted the comfort she offered.
Once feeling came back in my limbs, I lifted my head and looked down at her. Lilly's eyes were smiling, her dimple prominent, and I couldn't help but think that, even though she was always beautiful, nothing topped what she looked like in the afterglow of amazing sex. She was take-your-breath-away stunning. Several seconds passed in complete silence as I committed every inch of her face to memory.
"Hi," she finally whispered up at me, breaking through the quiet of the room.
I felt one corner of my mouth curl up in a half grin as I replied. "Hi back."
Her smile dimmed, the dimple disappeared, and the happiness on her face faded enough to let concern seep in and take it's place. Lilly's fingers moved to my hair and she brushed it back off my forehead. Her voice remained quiet as she asked, "You want to talk about whatever was bothering you over dinner?"
I jerked back just a bit, bewildered that she'd been able to read me so well. I thought I'd covered up the fact that my conversation with Garrett was still heavy on my mind. But she saw right through my façade. Warmth spread through my chest at the same time my gut constricted with anxiousness. I did my best to push the fear and guilt back, wanting to stay wrapped in Lilly's goodness for a little while longer.
"I don't want to think about the bad shit," I answered.
Her expression didn't grow any less uneasy, but she nodded anyway.
Wanting to erase her apprehension, I continued. "All I want is to be here with you, right now. Can we do that? Just stay with me in this room for tonight. We can let the real world back in tomorrow."
Lilly's eyes drifted shut as she inhaled deeply. They opened once again on an exhale, and the worry was gone. "If that's what you need."
It was. "It is."
She nodded her head and wrapped her arms around my neck, pulling me down for a hug. Once again, giving me a beautiful gift.
No. I didn't deserve her.
But as long as she could make me feel like this, I was going to keep her.
Lilly
HE WAS STILL holding himself back from me.
It had been just a little over a month since we started this relationship, and it didn't take a genius to see that he still had that invisible line between us firmly in place. I thought he'd warm up, open up. But - with the exception of sex - he was as closed off as ever.