A Baby for the Billionaire(18)

"I'm not an idiot."

"Could have fooled me."

"Great to talk to you. We'll have to go it again in another few years."

"Sorry. Look, I'm rooting for Todd here, but I'd regret not pointing out a very important factor you seem to be overlooking."

"And what's that?"

"She's a big girl. Maybe you should give her the choice rather than  deciding everything for her. That's not the action of someone who views  her as an equal."

Electricity streaked through his nerves.

"What?" he said, sitting up.

"Clara isn't some delicate flower. Think of some of those exposés she's  covered. If she were weak, she'd never have landed half the interviews  she has. Let her decide what risks she wants to take herself."

His fingers tightened on the phone. "And you think I'd be a risk she'd like to take?"

"That's a question for her. You just don't strike me as the type to hang  back when there's something you really want. If that's what you've been  doing because you think you're protecting her, you should really  rethink your motives."

It was his turn to be silent. "I appreciate the advice, but it might be too late for that," he said, finally.         

     



 

He could almost imagine Diane shrugging. "You never know unless you  try," she replied. "Clara is pretty damn great, and if you're fine  sitting back while another man discovers that truth then so be it."

A low growl built in his chest. He didn't want anyone else learning the  differences between all her smiles. Or discovering that she hated the  scent of roses but adored lilies. That she loved to learn and always had  her phone loaded up with podcasts on every topic imaginable. He'd even  seen her fight her way through textbooks on computer science just to  understand more of what he did. How could he stand another man watching  how she curled her arms around any stray pillow she could get her hands  on when she fell asleep on his couch?

How could he lose her without really fighting for her? Surely, she meant more to him than that.

"I need to go. Thanks for the call, Diane."

The woman sighed. "She's going to kill me. If I lose my best reporter because of you I'll never let you hear the end of it."

"Your secrets are safe. Trust me."

She snorted at the thought.

"You've just given me a few things to think about, that's all."

"Uh-huh. If Clara asks, I'm on vacation for the foreseeable future. Somewhere remote with no cell phone access."

"I'll pass that on," he said, rolling his eyes.

"Awesome. I'm going to go bang my head against the wall now. Ciao."

The call disconnected and he tossed his phone onto the coffee table.  Leaning his elbows against his knees, he templed his fingers as he  thought over Diane's words. Had he been running when he'd thought he was  doing the right thing? Protecting a woman more than capable of  protecting herself?

Had he been taking away her choices?

I could tell her why I kissed her. Tell her I haven't been able to get her out of my head.

For a man, whose longest relationship rarely stretched passed a single  TV season, the thought of forever should send him running for the hills.

But this was Clara. He couldn't imagine not wanting to see her. Not wanting to do more than see her if given the chance …

Which left him with a choice. One he'd made once before when they'd been  barely more than kids. Keep her friendship and watch her find a better  man to spend her life with. Or speak up, and maybe lose his best friend  in the attempt to win what he wanted most. Clara in his arms.

Pushing to his feet, he paced the length of the room. They weren't kids  anymore. This wasn't as easy or clear a decision as it'd once been.

He had a new baby. Now was not the time to start anything else in his  life. But if he didn't, Todd would swoop in and take advantage of his  hesitation.

Is there ever a good time to say the things I want to say to her?

After vowing to leave his interest for her in the past, he didn't think  so. He'd spent too many years actively avoiding thinking of her in this  context. Because even as a student he knew. There could be nothing  casual with Clara. This was an all-or-nothing decision, and he didn't  know if he was ready for permanent.

But if he wasn't, he'd lose her.

"Dammit," he swore.

What did he choose? Logic?

Or the chance at something more with his oldest friend?

 …

"Thank you for a lovely evening, Todd," Clara said, standing outside Walker's condo building.

"You live here?" he asked, looking up at the towering high-rise. "Reporters must do better than I thought."

"I'm … staying with a friend right now," she said.

He offered her an easy smile. "Must be nice."

"It is."

Sure, it is. But the beautiful condo isn't the reason.

Mentally shaking her head, she focused on her date. "I had fun tonight."

"Me too," he replied. "Hopefully we can do it again sometime."

The memory of ice blue eyes flashed through her mind.

"Yeah," she said. "I'd like that."

"Good." Touching her arm, he leaned in.

At the last moment, she turned her head, Todd's good-night kiss landing on her cheek instead of her lips.

She felt his hesitation before he drew back. "Thanks again," she said,  twisting her hands in her purse strap. "I'll give you a call and we can  set up another date."

Not waiting to see what he'd say, she raced through the door the doorman  held open. She crossed the ornate lobby to the elevators without  looking back at her date.

The evening could have ended smoother, but all in all she thought it  went well. He was exactly what she needed. Normal, sane, attractive.  There were no illegitimate children in his past, no brilliant business  ventures, or awkward social traits. He'd been charming and sweet. So,  what if he didn't make her heart race? Surely that sort of combustible  attraction would grow in time. And if it didn't, maybe she just didn't  need that level of desire in her relationships. Perhaps it was something  better left to fantasies than the real world. She wouldn't be blinded  by lust and make foolish mistakes. She could go into this relationship  with clear eyes. Todd could be just want she needed.         

     



 

The elevator arrived and she slid her key card into the penthouse access  slot. Immediately she started to rise, the numbers flashing above the  door. Glancing at her watch she saw it was late. Walker would probably  be asleep, grabbing a few hours' peace where he could. She'd have to be  quiet.

But when the elevator stopped at her floor and she disembarked, her feet slowed to a stop at the door.

She should unlock it, slip off to her room, and fall asleep thinking about Todd.

She wouldn't, though. If she entered the home before her, she'd spend the night thinking about Walker.

And the fact that he didn't want her the way she wanted him.

She swallowed hard, lifting her chin. These things happened. It was no  one's fault. He couldn't control who he was or wasn't attracted to any  more than she could.

But why doesn't he see me?

Why was he worming his way even deeper into her heart while the reverse wasn't true for him? What was so wrong with her?

Nothing. Todd thinks I'm great.

Too bad Walker just viewed her as a go-to for baby advice.

He values me more than that.

Just not the way she most wanted.

Straightening, she rolled back her shoulders. Too much of her life had  been spent waiting to see if anything would ever happen with them. That  ended now.

He kissed me out of stress, not desire. Remember that and push him back  into the friendzone. We don't need to lose each other over this.

Not if she could help it.

Mind made up, she unlocked the door and slipped inside. Kicking off her  shoes at the entranceway, she hung up her coat and tiptoed toward the  stairs.

Only to stop when she saw the light of a single lamp on in the living  room. Curious, she moved to the doorway and saw Walker waiting up in one  of his leather armchairs, his gaze fixed on her.

A shiver raced down her spine. A quick glance showed he was alone.  Hunter must have gone to sleep. Which made this even more dangerous. It  was late, dark, and her nerves were raw. She should toss him a wave and  make her way upstairs to the safety of her bedroom. Everything would  seem better in the sunlight. They could find their rhythm again and  things would be back to normal.

She stepped into the room.

He said nothing as she glided toward him on silent feet. The grand room  was more intimate in the near darkness. Walker's face was shadowed so  she could barely make out more than his glittering eyes.

Tossing her purse on a chair, she stopped a few feet from him.

"How was the date?" he asked.

She shrugged. "Todd is a great guy. We had a lot in common."

"Going to see him again?"

She glanced away. "Probably. It's been a while since I had such a successful first date. I wouldn't mind seeing where it leads."

"Sounds like a good time."

"It was."

It just would have been better with you.