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Without You(4)

By:Kelly Elliott


I nodded my head. "Yes, sir. Gunner it is."

He squeezed my shoulder. "Let's go for a ride and talk, shall we?"

I swallowed hard and said a quick prayer that I would make it back alive after our talk.         

     


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We rode for a bit before Gunner started talking, "I love this ranch. I always have, and I always will."

I nodded my head. "I do as well, sir."

Maybe this won't be so bad.

Gunner seemed relaxed. He was always happy when he talked about the  ranch. When he turned to look at me though, his smile faded. Something  changed in his eyes, and I was trying desperately to think about  something else on the ranch to talk about. He finally gave me a look  that I knew I would never forget.

He tilted his head and asked, "So, Will, how long have you been in love with my daughter?"





I kept looking down at my phone, waiting to hear something from Will.

"Stop staring at that thing and enjoy nature, Alex."

I smiled and pushed my cell into the pocket of my shorts. "Grams, may I ask you a question?"

Grams and I were on one of our daily walks. We'd been going on walks for  as long as I could remember. We usually walked in the morning, but  Grams had felt that we needed an evening walk since I'd kept pacing on  the back porch while waiting for Daddy and Will to get back from their  ride.

"Of course you can. You can ask me anything you want, Alex."

I took a deep breath and stopped walking. "Grams, this is kind of weird,  but I know you'll be honest with me." I stood there, staring at her. I  wasn't sure how to say what I wanted to ask.

The look in her eyes changed, and she nodded her head. "Well, are you  gonna just stand there and stare at me? Or are you going to ask me if I  saved myself for marriage?"

My mouth dropped open, and I couldn't even form words to speak. I'd  overheard my mom and Aunt Ari talking about how Grams knew things. They  had said it was like she knew what you were going to say or do before  you even did. I'd always thought they were crazy, but as I looked at my  great-grandmother, I knew they were so spot-on.

"Grams, how did you know what I was going to ask you?"

She let out a chuckle and started walking again. "Alex, I was seventeen  years old when I met your gramps. I knew the moment I saw him that he  was the one. I couldn't wait for him to make me his."

I smiled. I could just picture Grams and Gramps meeting for the first time. "So, you didn't wait for marriage?"

She shook her head. "No, honey, we didn't."

"How did you know?" I felt the blush hit my cheeks.

She shrugged her shoulders. "Anytime Garrett walked into a room, I used  to get the strangest feelings. I once begged him to make me his, but he  wouldn't. He said he wanted to make it special. I'm glad we didn't rush  into anything because the first time should be special, Alex. It should  be with someone you love. Now, your mama and daddy would want me to tell  you to be a good little girl and wait. I'm not gonna preach something  to you when I have no right to. Do I think it would be better to wait?  Yes. Just be careful, baby girl. Don't rush into anything because y'all  think you have to prove something. You don't. Love is more than sex."

"Daddy thinks what I feel for Will isn't love. He says I need to get out  of Mason and see what else is out there for me. I know what I feel in  my heart, Grams. I want to be with Will more than anything. The way my  body feels when he is around me … I just don't understand it."

She stopped and turned to face me. She reached for my hands and smiled  the same smile she had given me since I could remember. "Alex, don't  rush into anything because you're afraid of what your daddy is going to  make you do."

"Grams, I've been in love with Will for so long now. He's all I've ever known."

She raised her eyebrow. "Maybe that's why your daddy wants you to go to UT."

I placed my hand on my stomach and took a deep breath. I looked down,  and for the first time in the last few years, I felt doubt. "Yeah.  Maybe."

We continued on with our walk, and neither one of us said another word.  By the time we returned to the house, Will was sitting on my back porch.  I picked up my pace and then practically ran, so I could be in his  arms. He stood up and gave me a funny look. I slowed down as I went up  the steps. When my father came walking out, I stopped and tried to read  his face.

"Alex, did you enjoy your walk with Grams?" Daddy asked with a slight  smile. He looked at Grams as she made her way up the steps.

I nodded my head. "Yes, sir."

Grams stopped in front of Daddy. "Whew, I think I'm getting too old for  two walks a day. Drew, will you take your grandmother back home now? I'd  better check on Garrett and make sure he hasn't gotten himself into any  kind of trouble."         

     


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My father smiled and nodded his head. He looked back at me and smiled.  He appeared to be a lot calmer, and I couldn't help but wonder why.

Did he talk Will into breaking up with me? Did he threaten Will? Oh God, what if Daddy threatened him?

"Come on, Grams. Let's get you home." Daddy took Grams by the arm and led her back into the house.

I slowly turned and looked at Will. My eyes traveled up and down his  body. He appeared to be unhurt. He slowly smiled and winked at me.

There goes my stomach.

"What did he say to you?" I held my breath.

Will glanced at the door and then turned back to me. He walked up to me and took my hand in his. We began walking to his truck.

"Wait-are you leaving?"

"I have to get back home, Lex. Are you still planning on going to the party tomorrow night?"

I nodded my head and barely said, "Yes. I thought we were going together."

He stopped and leaned against his truck as he smiled. "We are."

I rolled my eyes and looked away before glancing back at him. "What did my father say to you?"

He grabbed my hips and pulled me to him. I was shocked he was being so  forward with his affections, especially knowing my father or mother  could see him at any moment.

"He asked me how long I've been in love with you. Then, he asked again if we've had sex."

I slammed my hands up to my mouth. "What?"

He laughed. "That was about my reaction, too."

"He didn't!"

"Yeah, he did. I was just glad as hell that I could honestly tell him we haven't had sex … yet."

My heart dropped, and I felt sick. "Will, please don't let him change  anything between us. If I have to go to another college … well, I want us  to be together before we leave for school."

He closed his eyes and then opened them. "Lex, I don't want to have sex just because we're afraid."

"I'm not afraid, Will. I love you. I know what I want, and I want you. I'm tired of waiting."

Will licked his lips, and then he let out what sounded like a growl. "Fuck, Lex. I want you, too, but I want it to be special."

He looked my body up and down and pulled me closer to him, so I could feel just how much he wanted me.

"You have no idea how hard it is to wait," he said.

I leaned up and went to kiss him when something hit the back of my head. I quickly turned around to see Luke standing there.

"What the hell, Luke?" I picked up the Nerf football and threw it back at him.

"Gunner is going to kick your ass if he sees you pawing on her," Luke said.

"Shut up, Luke. Gunner knows about me and Lex," Will said.

Luke's face dropped. "No shit?"

I smiled and leaned back against Will as he wrapped his arms around me.

"He's okay with this?" Luke asked.

Will stiffened behind me, and then he relaxed a bit. "After he  threatened to kill me if I ever hurt her, he gave me his blessing."

I spun around. "He threatened to kill you?"

Will laughed as he placed his finger on my chin and pulled my lips to  his. "I love you, Lex," he whispered before kissing me gently. "I've got  to go. I'll call you when I get home."

I smiled. "I love you, too. Be careful driving."

I took a step back and watched as Will got into his truck. He waved and  took off down the driveway. When I couldn't see his truck anymore, I  turned and glared at Luke.

He held his hands up. "What? You're like my little sister, Alex. I'm  gonna protect you even if it means beating the shit out of my best  friend."

I grinned. "You should be more concerned about Michael Clark and Grace."

Luke's smile faded, and he pushed his hand through his hair. "I hate that guy. I don't know what Grace sees in that ass."

"Me either."

Luke slowly grinned. "So, Uncle Gunner knows. You finally tell him?"

"Uh, no. He caught us kissing in the barn."

Luke started laughing. "Shit. I would have given my right arm to see Hayes's face."

I giggled as I walked up to him and pushed him in the chest. "You're so mean."

He threw his arm around me, and we headed back to my house.

"Alex, if he ever hurts you, I hope you know you're going to ruin a damn good friendship."