Red Hot(Sex & Mayhem #5)(121)

“Yeah, yeah, I know.” Jack snorted. Clearly, he didn’t believe Loki, but that was only motivating to prove him wrong. “I’ve come in your ride,” he said and led the way through the parking lot, but Loki couldn’t spot his car.

“Hey, I’m gonna learn, you know. At least you’re not into fancy-shmancy stuff. Don’t you want me to?” muttered Loki. He would vacuum once a week, he would do laundry, and he’d get the food piping hot... somehow.

“I want you to get better. Just heal, and I’m sure you’ll learn everything you want later.”

Loki bumped into Jack when they stopped in front of a car that looked a lot like Jack’s old ride. It even had black flames painted at the back, but after a moment, he realized the shape was all wrong, and the little nodding dog at the back only confirmed his suspicion - it was Loki’s own car, fixed after the accident and looking good as new.

“Oh. My. God. You repainted it?” asked Loki, grabbing Jack’s forearm as his knees softened too much. “It’s so beautiful. Looks brand new.”

“You like it? Sam fixed the front.” Jack gave Loki a toothy grin. “I did the paintwork so it looks like it’s wearing my old car. Like those serial killers wearing their victims’ skin.”

Loki burst out laughing, shifting his feet back and forth. It was both a romantic and disturbing declaration. “Like you want to cover me? I want to kiss you so much right now.”

“I wanna lick your face so bad it’s making my dick hurt, so let’s just go home, huh?” Jack said and made his way to the driver’s seat, looking a bit deflated.

Loki exhaled, unsure what he’d done to disappoint Jack. Had he not been enthusiastic enough? Was Jack worried they wouldn’t be able to fuck?

Loki bit his lip and slowly climbed into the passenger seat. Jack was such a big man that he took up much more space in the driver’s seat than Loki did. Without thinking, Loki put his hand on Jack’s thick thigh as they left the hospital parking lot. “What’s up?”

Jack sighed and wouldn’t look at him. “I can’t kiss you in public. I probably never will.”

Loki swallowed, drawn to his handsome face like a moth to the brightest flame it’s ever seen. He wasn’t sure what to make of that statement. “Oh... yeah, that’s a shame, isn’t it?” he asked, smiling at Jack to dissolve the sudden tension.

“I’m sorry,” Jack uttered as he drove toward the clubhouse and put his hand on Loki’s.

Loki’s heart clenched. Was Jack worried about it for him? “It’s fine. I mean... it would be nice if we could, but I know you can’t. I get it.”

“Are you sure?” Jack finally gave him a glance. “You’re the first guy I’m with this way, and I can’t stop thinking that I’m gonna fuck this up somehow.”

Loki turned up his hand and entwined his fingers with Jack’s. “My other boyfriends were out with me, and I wasn’t the first for them, but they didn’t care for me like you do. Do you think either of them would even consider giving up so much for someone like me?”

“Won’t you get tired of it? The constant hiding? I’d like to tell the whole world about you, but I can’t.” Jack tightened his jaw so hard his teeth screeched.

Loki couldn’t help a smile spreading across his lips. “Won’t you get tired of a selfish prick like me?”

Jack laughed, but there was a hint of nervousness in his voice. “Not if he sucks dick the way you do.”

Loki pulled his thumb over the sensitive side of Jack’s finger. Typical Jack. So macho. But as much as Loki wanted them to be acknowledged as a couple, without lies and fear of being found out, he knew he couldn’t ask Jack for changing his life even more than he already had. He’d never again push Jack into something he wasn’t ready for.

“Then I won’t be tired of the hottest stud I’ve met.”

“Someone’s gonna have to jerk you off. With your thumb gone and all.” Jack turned into a smaller street, and Loki could already recognize the tall walls of the club building far away.

He pulled up Jack’s hand and brushed his lips over the scabs on his knuckles. “I can be your cousin as long as we can be together behind closed doors. I promise to always stalk you. But in a good way.”

Jack snorted. “There’s a good way to stalk? I learn every day.”

Loki chuckled and let him go as they approached the gate. “I suppose there must be.”

A prospect opened the gate for them, and Jack drove into the familiar courtyard, which at this time of day was empty. Loki was glad. The last thing he needed was everyone seeing him in the shitty outfit and with greasy hair, straight from hospital.