When we reached outside I pulled her around the side and out of the way of prying eyes. With her pushed up against the wall I looked down at her. She was so fucking beautiful in the moonlight as she looked up at me, her eyes bright and wary. For some reason that shit pissed me off; I didn’t want to find her beautiful, didn’t want this burning in my gut that came from being this close to her.
I wanted to kiss her and strangle her at the same time, but why? She’s never done anything to me, never once gave any indication that she wanted anything from me. Maybe that was part of the problem, she was always so fucking cool. Never once letting on that she was affected by me the way I was by her. But she’d let that asshole put his hands on her though, she hadn’t seemed afraid, didn’t jump out of her fucking skin.
“Are you a fucking witch or something?” I crowded her even closer pressing my body into hers.
“What no, why would you say that?”
“Whatever the fuck you’re doing to me you need to stop.”
“Hey I’m not doing anything to you, you’re the one following me around acting like you own me remember?” Yeah there was that fire I sensed inside her. She pulled away from me and folded her arms as she spat fire at me with her eyes. “I have a solution for you, why don’t you just stay away from me in the future and you won’t have to feel like this.”
Before I could answer her she turned to walk away from me and that’s when I did the dumbest thing I’d done thus far where she was concerned. I pulled her around roughly not quite sure what I was going to do until I found myself taking her mouth in a searing kiss. She tried keeping her tongue from me at first but I didn’t let up until I had it in my mouth. In the back of my mind I could hear myself asking what the fuck I thought I was doing but I couldn’t stop. She was fighting it just as much as I was as I could still feel the tenseness in her body.
That little bit of resistance I encountered only prolonged the kiss until she yielded to me completely and burned me to my very soul. Her lips were soft and sweet beneath mine, and her body molded itself to my hardness like we were made to fit together. My heart raced away from me, and my mind was a blank as I tried to rein myself in. I’ve never kissed anyone like this before in my life, like I wanted to consume her, to somehow draw her into me.
“Fuck Kadyn, just fuck.” I rested my head against hers until I caught my breath. I looked down at her glazed eyes and swollen lips using my thumb to rub them softly. “What the fuck are you doing to me Kadyn?” Her answer was a shake of her head, as she too seemed blown away by the heat of the kiss. I hadn’t expected that that’s for sure. Hadn’t expected to feel like I’d found something I hadn’t even known was lost. To be sure it hadn’t been a fluke or just plain horniness I took her lips again. This time I tried to go slow, take her softly but that lasted for all of two seconds before I was once again devouring her.
Her taste was unbelievable, everything about her mouth was; the way her tiny tongue played hide and seek with mine, the little sexy sound she made when I folded her closer to me wrapping my arms tightly around her. “Like this.” I had to show her how to take my tongue in her mouth and the reality came crashing down on me. She didn’t know how to kiss; that could only mean one thing. Untouched. As if my head wasn’t fucked enough as it was that thought had to creep in there. The idea did something strange to me, what that was, fuck if I know but it did…something.
I pulled her head back holding fistfuls of her hair as I stared down at her. A million thoughts were going through my head as I took her in. She wasn’t flinching away form me now but instead her hands were clutching folds of my shirt at my back. Neither of us said a word as we stood there under the moonlight just staring into each other. I knew why I wasn’t talking, I had no words for what was going on inside me, but what was her excuse?
Finally I kissed her forehead and whispered in her ear because I needed to get the fuck out of there and think about this shit.
“Get back inside. I’ll see you tomorrow.” I turned and walked away without a backward glance. That quickly I was back to being pissed. What the fuck was going on here anyway?
The two meddlers seemed to sense my mood because they said nothing when I jumped in the truck and took off. It was going to be a long night, if she could make my body sing from just a few innocent kisses who knew what else she could do to me. Innocent, the word swam around inside my head and did even crazier shit to my heart. If what I suspected was true she was in even more trouble than before; I’m not sure I could walk away from that package.
Chapter 10
“We’re going to the beach bro let’s go.” Josh was in my room first thing the next morning trying to drag me off the bed. It was too early for his shit and I wasn’t in the mood. I didn’t want to go anywhere, just wanted to stay here hidden in my room and think about the way things had gone last night. Can’t a guy lose his fucking mind in peace around here?
And I’m pretty sure that that’s what’s going on with me; what else can it be? One minute I’m mad at the world the next I’m hard as fuck. I have this girl that I barely know running around in my head and following me into my dreams while the nut that I was once hooked up with was facing ten to life. This shit reminded me of a scene from one of dad’s old ancient ass movies ‘stop the world, I wanna get off’. If only it were that easy. Kadyn…
That kiss had sealed both our fates; she’d damn near blown off the top of my fucking head. So soft and sweet, her taste was still on my tongue hours later as I’d tossed and turned on my bed trying to make sense of the whole thing. Where did we go from here? Was I even ready to swim in those waters again? I was twisting myself in knots with no real answers.
“I don’t feel like going to the beach bro, you guys go on without me.” I went back to throwing the ball up in the air as I laid back on the bed. “I think you might want to rethink that one bro.” It was the way he said it that had me looking at him suspiciously.
“What did you do now?” I sat up and flexed my shoulders, have to be on the alert when this sneaky fuck was up to his shit, and who knows what it was this time. “Why do you always have to be so suspicious bro? Lets just go you have ten minutes the others are already waiting.” He stood over me and punched me in the shoulder. What the fuck did he want with the beach so early in the damn morning?
I got up and looked for my swim trunks, there was no point in denying him; he’d only nag my ass to death until he got his way anyway.
“Fine get out of here let me get dressed.” My first thought was that it would be hours before I saw Kadyn again. I hadn’t even done my morning drive by; just to make sure she was okay mind you. Yeah right.
Sometimes I parked across from the diner and watched her through the glass as she worked.
Three days a week, she walked to Doc Graves office and I still didn’t know what that was about but I knew it couldn’t be good. Doc was a head shrinker or at least that’s what we call him around here. What could be wrong with her that she had to go see him? And did it have anything to do with her skittishness? Every time I thought of the reasons behind her behavior my guts hurt. If someone had hurt her I’d kill the fucker. And that was just crazy. If I turned into Josh I’d throw myself off the fucking roof, no way I wanted to be that gone over a chick.
They were all waiting for me when I finally made it downstairs. “What the fuck is all that shit?” They had baskets and coolers and about a million blankets. “It’s a picnic caveman, let’s go.” Carrie came over and hooked my elbow dragging me out the door. I looked back at her husband to rescue me but he was pretending not to notice. Nessa and the douche were bringing up the rare, I was almost expecting to see the parents but they just came to see us off with big stupid smiles. I got the feeling everybody knew something I didn’t and I don’t like that one bit. Or maybe I was just being paranoid since no one mentioned anything suspicious.
There was a lot of chatter and playing around as we headed for the beach about a half an hour away. I felt some of my tension ease a little as we got farther away from town. I think I’m a little afraid of Kadyn Daniels truth be known. The things she makes me feel can’t be right can they? How could someone else have so much power over you, someone you hardly even knew? If that damn kiss was anything to go by she was going to have me hopping.
I looked at Josh and Carrie as I drove, taking covert peeks now and then. Is that what I would look like around Kadyn? That happy to be alive but I’ll slit your throat if you fuck with her look? I shook my head to clear the image. This is what I’m afraid of, you see, if Kadyn is the one, then there’s a whole lot she’s gonna have to put up with. Not only am I changed because of my last experience in the love game; I refuse to let anyone ever fuck me over like that again. But I have the feeling that with her I won’t be able to control myself. If she’s been hurt, what I have in me, the things she seems to draw out of me might be too much for her. But can I afford to let her go? That’s the question plaguing me, and the one that needed answering the most.