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Craving Beauty(6)

By:Nalini Singh




She glared at him and dumped the case on the wooden planks of the   verandah, then knelt down to unlock it. He waited. What did she hope to   prove? After the final tumbler clicked into place, she threw him a   rebellious look and flung open the lid.



"Books," she said, smoothing the faded cover of one. "I tell you no lies." Her voice shook.



Confused by the vulnerability he could hear, he went down on his   haunches beside her. "Why did you try to hide them from me?" He was   almost jealous of the reverence with which her slender hands touched the   cracked spines and dog-eared pages.



She closed the lid as if to conceal them once more and relocked the   case. "My father didn't think that women should have much learning. He   threw away my books when he could find them." She wouldn't look at him.   shielding herself behind a waterfall of shimmering hair.



Well, hell, that was one answer he hadn't expected. Very carefully, with   all the gentleness he had in him, he stroked her hair aside so he  could  see her face, his hand cupping her cheek. She flinched but didn't  move  away. "You don't have to hide your books from me."



He felt the shudder that shook her frame. Finally she raised her head,   her gaze wary. "Is that true or are you... playing with me?"



The guarded look in those eyes was one he recognized. She expected to be   kicked when she was down, to be humiliated and laughed at. That she   should expect it of him was infuriating, but he understood that the   lessons of a lifetime couldn't be forgotten in a day.



"I promise you it's true." In apology for the way he'd jumped on her, he   told her something of himself. "I know the value of books. As a child,  I  read everything I could find. I'll never begrudge you knowledge." He   removed his hand. "There's a library on the first floor. Use it  whenever  you want."



Pressing her lips tight, she gave a jerky nod. "Th-thank you..   .husband." It was the first time she'd acknowledged his claim over her,   and there was no taunt or barb in her voice. Instead he heard a   bone-deep vulnerability that threatened all his beliefs about her.



Unsettled, he stood and offered her a hand. After the tiniest hesitation, slender feminine fingers slipped into his.                       
       
           



       

As she rose, his eyes dropped unintentionally to the skin bared above the modest neckline of her sleeveless top.

Sheened with sweat, her golden skin glowed. Heat flickered to life   within him. No matter what his mind knew, his body couldn't understand   why he was keeping his distance.



He forced his gaze to her face. It didn't do much good. It was as   sensual as the rest of her. Full lips, sharp cheekbones, eyes a strange   hypnotic shade of lightest brown that gave her a slightly feline look.



"You are so beautiful," he found himself saying, unable to believe the reality of her.



She gave him a tight smile and tugged her hand away. "Yes. People always tell me that."



It should've sounded conceited. Instead, her tone held such sorrow that   he stopped her from heading inside, putting his arm around her waist   when she tried to walk past. The heat from her body passed through her   cotton top and over him like a secret caress.



"And you don't like that?" He frowned.



She looked at him with those amazing eyes. "I am more than a face and a   body. I am Hira. But no one wishes to know Hira. Please, I'm tired."



He released her. Stubbornly clutching her precious case, she moved past   him in a wash of soft perfume and an indefinable scent that was  uniquely  her. As he retrieved the other bags, he wondered if she placed  him in  the same category as those other people. And, if she did, was  she right?  He'd brushed aside her claims of interest in economics and  thought she  wouldn't know one end of a book from another. He'd been  wrong on at  least one count and that indicated he might be wrong on the  other.



Or his beautiful, spoiled wife was playing games with him, trying to mess with his head.



Of all the possibilities, that seemed the most likely. First she freezes   him out of their bed, then she comes across needy and scared on the   plane, now he sees this tenderhearted hurting creature. Who was the real   Hira? Marc hadn't yet made up his mind. He hadn't reached where he had   in life by making snap decisions. Then again, he'd asked for her hand   before he'd spoken a word to her.



Perhaps, he accepted, there was some truth in her complaint. When he'd   seen her on that balcony, had he wanted to know Hira? Had he fallen for   the soul of that lovely woman who'd seen magic in the moonlight?



Or had he wanted to own that beautiful creature, wanted to show the   world that the upstart Cajun with a patched-up body and face could own   something so exquisite, most men would never even dream of it?



It.



His blood chilled. When had he become the kind of man who treated a   person as a commodity? When had be become like the rich men he hated,   the ones who collected beautiful young women as expendable accessories?



No, he thought. No. He wasn't like them. If he were, he wouldn't have   experienced such disgust at his momentarily aberrant thoughts. If he had   nothing emotional invested in this marriage, the visceral pain he felt   at the thought that he might have to dissolve it wouldn't exist.



Perhaps he could be accused of arrogance, but he'd been treated as a   nonperson once. As a thing. He would never do that to another human   being.



Not even to his ice queen of a wife.



Three

They'd just finished a largely silent take-out dinner later that   evening, when he received a phone call from Nicole, a childhood friend.



"I'll be awhile," he told Hira. "Nic needs some advice on a contract."   Used to his help, Nicole had begged him to fly up to New York, but no   way was he leaving his new bride to go to another woman's aid. That   would be killing his marriage before it began, and the lost, lonely boy   inside him continued to catch tantalizing glimpses of his dreams in   Hira's eyes.



His wife had no way of knowing that Nicole was like a sister to him.   From what she'd revealed of her parents" marriage, he'd bet she'd think   he was going to his "other woman."



No curiosity enlivened her closed expression. "As you wish." Despite his attempts during dinner, she'd re-

fused to soften in any way. It was almost as if she were willing him to   forget the woman he'd glimpsed in that instant's vulnerability on the   verandah.



"You've probably seen Nic on the ads for Xanadu Cosmetics." React, damn   it, he wanted to say. Show me you care about this marriage.. .about  your  husband.



"She is lovely."



Cold as ice, Marc thought once again, furious at himself for hoping for   something more. "Perhaps I should've just married Nic instead," he   muttered under his breath as he left the room, not intending his new   wife to hear the wholly facetious comment.





Hira felt his words impact like sharp stones against her heart, wounding   and so incredibly hurtful that she couldn't breathe. She sat there,   unable to move for what seemed like forever. Marc had stalked into the   spacious living area abutting the kitchen but had left the door open.   Though she couldn't distinguish the words, she could hear the deep   rumble of his voice.                       
       
           



       



And occasionally she could hear a low male chuckle.



Clenching her hands on the arms of the chair, she made herself take   deep, calming breaths. The feeling of betrayal persisted. She didn't   know why, but she hadn't expected that kind of cruelty from the man   she'd married. He'd been so gentle, so tender with her feelings on the   plane that he'd fooled her completely. And on the verandah...his rough   understanding had been her undoing.



So quickly, so suddenly, he'd threatened to win her trust. Terrified of   his power over her, she'd retreated behind the only protection she   had-an icy facade that was as brittle as summer frost. The whole time   that they'd sat across from each other at this table, she'd ached to   place her faith in him, but the part of her that had grown up watching   her father ambush, then degrade her mother's pride, had cautioned her to   wait before she made an awful mistake. And that bruised part of her  had  been right. If Marc could cause her such torment now, how much  worse  would it have been if she'd taken those first halting steps?